(Definitely) the Cancer Lyrics

Struggling to end it all

To say stop instead of go

The way that I end it all

To call it right

I’ve changed inside by giving up this perpetuation

Through it I wonder: what’s worse?

The cancer or the cure?

I’m scared of letting go…

Existing through the clinical

Waiting for the miracle

The way I suspend it all

To end its fight

I can’t go back – my minds made up – in for the duration

But, I still wonder: what’s worse?

The cancer or the cure?

Oh, that I could never know!

Now I know that I’ll never be completely free

It’s the nature of this chemical I bear

But, resolute I stand up against what pulls me down

I end the wondering

How I wish I’d walked

How I wish I’d woken

How I wish I’d given it all away

“Now make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong

Always try seek goodness in every way

For yourselves and for all that you meet along the way”

I mean all that I say!

What I’d give to know

If I could write a new page

Or should that moment pass?

I turn and then I walk away!