Pain Lyrics

Self-destructive

Looking in the mirror

Wonder how do I appear

Take a swing and bust it

Swear to God I hear

Monsters screaming in my ear

Saying hit the Frigidaire

Grab a beer and chug it

So fuck it

Coming from the land of lost souls

Dark roads

Trying to evade the potholes

Build another wall up

As I swallow these Narcos

Way to many homies lost

Lowered in dark holes

We all ghosts

I'm so tired of being tested

Pain in me will never leave

Wired to be infested

Part of me is hardening

And feeling disconnected

Hard to sleep

And hard to breathe

Harder to confess that

Slowly getting colder

No controlling getting older

Man this shit is getting heavy

Got a boulder on my shoulder

Got me flipping in this bitch

Like an older Motorola

Man I'm sick of all of this

But it's survival of a soldier

Stand up

Surprised that I survived

Through all this pain

Made it out alive

But not unscathed

So hard to deny

That the scars remain

Remain

Remain

Still I walk alone

With my head high

Always some shit

And I don't know why

Question all this pain

Still no reason why

Why

Bye to the border

I ran out of bricks

Ran out of mortar

No order for shit

Facing this horror

Erasing tomorrow

By drowning my sorrow

Replacing the water

My patience has faded

Patiently waited

Unanswered prayers

That have left me sedated

A brain if it's gone

You can never replace it

A mother's another

And mama I hate it

On God

Shit is a mess

I do not visit enough I confess

I'm sorry

Helpless at best

Bottle my problems

And swallow the stress

Stressed out

Selfish I guess

I cannot stand to see you in distress

Man I hate that shit

Tried to suppress

Telling myself you don't

Want me depressed

So sick of dementia

I don't do talking

I vent with a pencil

Got to keep walking

But this shit ain't simple

Constantly really just

Fucks with my mental

Constantly searching

For pieces of mind

Spilling my heart

And my soul in a rhyme

Life needs a button

Delete or rewind

How could such suffering

Be by design

God tell me why

Yo this is evil

My mother was faithful

And never deceived you

She never was hateful

Led me to receive you

And all of my brothers

So she need a redo

There's rapist, molesters

And killers in freedom

They should be hung

Why you leaving them breathing

And let Randall's cancer

Just grow and come back

Forgive me for asking

But what's up with that

I don't understand

What is going on today

What's going on, what's going on

I bow my head

Ask the Lord as I pray

I know we ain't suppose to ask no questions

But Lord all these transgressions

I just feel I need an answer to keep moving for now

Right now

Right now

Surprised that I survived

Through all this pain

Made it out alive

But not unscathed

So hard to deny

That the scars remain

Remain

Remain

Still I walk alone

With my head high

Always some shit

And I don't know why

Question all this pain

Still no reason why

Why