in conclusion. Lyrics

Haven't been alone in days

Tending to find solitude in dark rooms and sky grays

Packing up my things when I'm under

Hoping I can run away for months in the summer

Avoiding calls from everyone I know

Trying hard to hide I'm sad although I'm sure it shows

Watching my friends blow up on the internet

I'm happy for them while I see them as a potential threat

Got the rug pulled from under me

When will I just let it be and let them see that

I'm stuck in delusion

It's hard to love myself

In conclusion

Can't help but to feel like I'm ignored

Unless I am successful they can't stop from getting bored

Always in my head and self sabotage

Close my eyes and just let itself unfold in a montage

Can't tell dreams from reality

When can I just let it be, but finally

Trust is now confusion

Cause I don't like myself

In conclusion

I'm still in recovery

From suppressing everything they did to me

And time is an illusion

I hate who I've become

In conclusion