HELP (Part 1) Lyrics

I could drop one million verses

About my brothers that got left in horses

About my life when I was feeling worthless

Everyday I woke up I was feeling cursed and I never really fit in anywhere that I went

Still I always battled everyday got spent

Just trying to survive in my own damn head

Swear I was damaging panicking

man couldn't hack it and

Man was a manager but man wasn't managing

But I had my lyrics equipped I was brandishing

Hoping a label would see and they bring me in

Lyrics I'm rambling

Fact that I'm standing here handling

Didn't get lifted off brandished as

I was just left in the dirt still managed it

Wouldn't of thought back then that I'd handle it

I was in the dark but had light with my candle lit

I could of blown years ago but they cancelled it

And they cancelled me

I got three years just for spitting on the beat

Wasted so much time I could of owned the scene

But now I know the scene

And now you notice me

Now I know that my times coming overseas

I'm gonna master beats until I'm on with Meekz

Until I've bossed this scene getting paid all week

Now I'm booking flights going Mozambique

The covid lockdown that we had was peak

Now I'm going ham every day every week

Going to keep on going going to keep on flowing

Keep on growing and keep on showing

Show these other artists who's blowing

I'm a one man boat and I'm always rowing

Don't need no free kicks or no throw ins

Dont need nothing no way that I'm slowing

I'm a one man team score goals like Owen

Back then wish that they took this toe in

Now I'm glad that they left me growing

Left me all on my own no poem

Now I done this solo I can show em

Took a few years off

Because I caught that case

Didn't watch no time

Didn't watch no face

I was on that wing

But I still made cake

And the day that I left

Had the whole wing blazed

Don't chat to me mate

You're a straight up case

Moving fast now I'm putting on brakes

Shower down scenes like firing plates

I was dying in vein

I've been misled to believe

That all my pain and all my grief

I can't even look between these lines or even recognize me

This pain inside my life

Don't know why I'm not surprised

It's like a lie inside a lie so please just try and tell me why

It's all forgotten when you're lifeless

So what's the point now what's worth fighting

I don't know now and I'm frightened

I just want this fucking life and

I just want to make it right and

All the pain I've left behind

I left it all to try get signed

I left it all to try and find

Do it again that's on my life

Because this music keeps me high

I swear this music keeps me tight

I swear this music keeps my right

I been designed and realigned to try and speak what's on my mind

To try and look between the lines

I really went and made it right

And now I'm trying to move it better

And now i've really got it locked

Yeah all this pain inside my heart

Man when the fucks it gonna stop