Thought you understood my pain, but I couldn't see the lies through the passion

I still hear you say my name

I talk to the gang and they asked what happened

But I can't give them an answer

Took me out just like an assassin

Cause now I've ended up in silence

And I know that my heart has been blackened

And I know that you're moving on

I hope you know that I am too

But I still run back to the days and Imagine when I called you boo

All my bros have seen me cry

Feels like I got no tears left

And Good luck to the bitches coming

Cause she took my heart out my chest

And they wonder why I choose music and abuse it

Cause I don't wanna lose it

And you know that I won't come back cause without rap

I feel so damn useless

Not a rollie on my wrist

But I still track the time of when I was ruthless

These days when I see my reflection

Have to ask myself "aye man, who's this?"

And out of all of the drugs I've taken

I know my old favourites

In public have to act unshaken

My kindness has got mistaken

All the pills that I have popped

To try and make all this pain stop

But I know the rain still falls

Got my stomach tied in knots

These days have to act to faced

And put on a mask just to hide what's real

My bros say you're in pain but maybe try put it on drill

Oops wanna come my way but I might just kill

I just wanna be on stage and bop to the music that's my thrill

But time and time again I know that my heart has been broken

My trust has been put to the side

And some people don't know this

Talk about it every day, like how could you not notice

These problems come up in school and they wonder why I can't focus

Now let's be honest

How many times did I cry in your arms

And you told me I still got this

And I found out that you went behind my back even tho you promised

Why did I mean to you

Now I'm just a boy tryna chase the profit

Now I hope someday

That I'll find someone that'll love my love

Cause all for the ones in the past

My all has never just been enough

I've been broken down to my knees

Some days I pray to a god above

But it's too late I sold my soul

So my dreams come up

Sit down in my room and tell these 4 walls my secrets

Cause I feel like nobody understands

The way I process my demons

Even my family doesn't know what cuts the deepest

I've done this to myself ain't no wonder everyone's leaving

Well I hope someday I make you proud of me

Even if it takes all night

Or a thousand nights of sleep

Need a place to hide

But I can't find my peace

Wanna feel alive but I've felt dead for weeks

Isn't it lovely

All alone

Heart made of glass my mind of stone

Tear me to pieces

Skin and bone

I will be alone

I belong alone