I wanted to tell you this but it's too late, Pt. II Lyrics

Do you wonder why I stay inside?

Because I got a broken mind, and people find a way to lie

I'm struggling to stay alive

How could you just say to me that I should fucken feel alright

Not someone you should idolize, I'm tryna numb the pain

I Struggle with the thought of suicide

I'm tryna find the Cyanide

Anxiety is rising

I wish I could run away n hide

Household ain't even that bad

It's just the demons screaming out at me, and some shit with my dad

It's crazy

I start the see the message lately

I understand why you don't like me, even I fucken hate me

My grandma just got cancer

She told me

"Don't you worry son, there'll be an answer"

But what happens if there ain't

Now I'm out here feeling feint

Put a smile on my face, so no one out here thinks I've changed

My souls been bruised and beaten

Stabbed in the back but didn't realize I was bleeding

Got me on my knees screaming

"Why the fuck my mind against me, why can't I stop feeling!"

Somebody help me, somebody help me please

I been feeling so alone, I got blood on my knees

The body that I'm trapped in is oh so empty

So one more time

Please somebody help me

Fuck

I feel so helpless

Lost in a time where I feel so restless

Got stuck in a place where my heart and my mind are erased

And the pieces of my character got lost upon the way

(Shit)

I hate how I have to turn to drugs

My mother probably thinks that I'm just tryna have some fun

But really what I'm doing is making myself numb

Sometimes I wish I weren't alive

Just like when I was young