Beneficial Thoughts Lyrics

Never thought that

My words would

Be so spoken

Especially from the guy

Who's mind

Is truly broken

Looking in myself

Left my heart and soul

Open

So I have beneficial thoughts

To really have hope in

Super optimistic

Despite the look

In my eyes

Never disguised

I used to be the kid

Who lashed out

When they cried

See myself in the mirror

My reflection I despised

Because of frequent Disappointments

Asking why should I try

My self esteem low

And my self worth diminished

I feel like Finbar Calamitus

Cause I could never finish

I wanna wake up every morning

Hang myself

And just end it

But everything I've done

Will be for none

That's not what's intended

I'm a worried

Wounded

Warrior

Who bleeds out dedication

And learned about himself

Through drug

Induced revelations

So without an occupation

I'm feeling just like a patient

Surrounded by

Wants and thoughts

That could be considered latent

I thought life would be fun

Like ball

And cross overs

Until I almost lost my life

And crossed over

Finding new distractions

While I fail at

Being sober

Smoke and mirrors

Hide the demons

When they stay

Way past October

It's been a struggle

Being humble gave

Me some confidence

Learned about my

Awkward incompetence

Then put a stop in it

Nice in person

But I really will rock your shit

Astounded that

My mental health

Just needed some polishing

And guidance

Self reliance

Cause nobody's gonna help me

But me

Cut off most my friends

So now my pen

Will keep me company

Luckily

Something be

A disgusting beast

Who's in his mind

Discussing peace

Told insecurities

Not to fuck with me

Back then

I knew life would be troubling

Put faith inside myself

And now my dubs

Have been doubling

Still struggling

With marketing

And self promotion

Living in productive motion

Tryna solve my problems

While my happiness

Remains the quotient

Don't think I'm potent

I think my message is

Sad subject matter

Won't always be

In my sentences

But life is full of preferences

And I prefer to be happy

Even if I don't know

What that means exactly