nauseous/problem (album cut) Lyrics

I hate myself

I hate the way I think

Restless nights I need to go to sleep

Mind is wide awake

Can't control my thoughts

Losing sense of time

Losing my mind

Is this just by design

God

Why would you do this

Make your creation feel so worthless

If you live in my image then I'm fucking clueless

Cause

I hate my body

I can't eat

Staring at this plate

It's looking back at me

This isn't what I want

It's not what I need

It's saying things

I should get a drink

I look in the mirror and I find my flaws

Try to ignore them but I hear them call

I wanna rip them all off my face

Rearrange my eyes to see a different place

If you were still here then what would you say

Seeing your grandson in this kind of state

It's getting worse and it's never better

If I get any closer I'll pull this fucking trigger (Yuh)

Pull the trigger let my brain splatter

On these newly painted walls

Newly founded halls

Church bells ring

Hear the choir sing

A beautiful image made for my sinning

They carry me in and my family crying

It's not your fault it's always been about myself

Fuck everyone else

I don't care about nobody else (Ugh)

I'm my own enemy

Own centerpiece

Can't tell if I hate me

I love Ethan G

Sometimes I wish I was someone else

Sometimes I think I'm my perfect self

Everyone telling I still gotta grow

Then why does it feel like I'm at the end of the road

At the end of the road

I think I

I got a problem

I feel like I'm boutta vomit

Already fucking smoking haven't even ate I'm feeling nauseous

I don't know what to do

I'm mid hit and my mom's walking into my room

I freeze up

Smokes coming out my mouth

She walks in and ask's what the fuck is this about

I stare

I don't got nothing to say

The look of disappointment is settling in her gaze

I say I could explain

But she doesn't wanna hear it

She say's I'm tired of this bullshit Ethan

I'm sorry

That's my favorite phrase

At this point I think it's all about I fucking say

I gotta problem, problem, problem

I gotta problem, problem, problem

I gotta problem, problem, problem

I gotta problem