This is All I Am and All I'll Ever Be Lyrics

Something's telling me to go home

I told you once when we first met

There's nothing good inside of my head

Patterns, oh patterns of illness

All along it would be this way

Fearful mind

Is it making sense?

Layered with this shame

But I don't deserve to feel this way

Make me clean

Clean me up and set the wounds in me free

Nothing I can do about my genes

Make me clean

So I can say I tried my best and it worked this time

How long I've tried, how long I've tried

Floating above the ground

When gravity comes down

And the only way back up from here will surely get me killed

I should've gone home

Barely functional and tired, but trying

Doing my best to make it for you and I

Am I getting closer to whatever healed looks like?

Is this worth it?

Oh tell me if it's worth it

Am I a victim to what is developing

Or am I stronger than I can clearly see

I've been so low and I've been so weak

Nearly forgotten if I am meant to be

Fearful mind

Is it making sense?

Layered with this shame

But I don't deserve to feel this way

Make me clean

Clean me up and set the wounds in me free

Nothing I can do about my genes

Make me clean

So I can say I tried my best and it worked this time

How long I've tried, how long I've tried

Floating above the ground

When gravity comes down

And the only way back up from here will surely get me killed

I should've gone home

I should've gone home

Make me clean

Clean me up and set my wounds free

Nothing I can do about my genes

So I can say I tried my best and it worked this time

How long I've tried, how long I've tried