Not Myself Lyrics

You know I've been going through a lot of shit lately

You know sometimes I be feeling

I be feeling like I'm losing my mind like I'm operating outside of my body

You know sometimes I be having to tell myself to chill

Sometimes I gotta slow down you know

Sometimes I gotta you know roll one up and remind myself who the fuck I am

Ain't been myself these days

Been feeling down

I'm on the throne with nobody to share the crown

On my way up but for some reason I'm still down

How do you smile when all you wanna do is cry

Nowhere to go you ain't got no one to ride

On my way up and stressed as fuck but I'll be fine

On my way up and stressed as fuck but I'll be fine

I spent a lot of time and money making sure that I was noticed

Let the opinion that my peers control where I put my focus

Wasn't till years later when I really paid attention

That it don't matter who be watching as long as you make them listen

My jersey hung off in the rafters

That pussy became my fucking master

But towards the end you flipped the script

Well that's it the final chapter

Been through a ton of pain and scars

No I can't claim it all on you

But you was the one that confided in it

The keeper of all my secrets

Was told communication failed so I went off the deep end

What we had was more than love though

You loved the way I beat it

It was your thoughts that had me stuck

And now I'm stumped because your smart ass wanna act like you don't even know what's up

Like you don't even know what's up

What the fuck

Ain't been myself these days been feeling down

My squad be with me but it's like no one's around

I'm on this throne with nobody to share the crown

On my way up but for some reason I'm still down

How do you smile when all you wanna do is cry

Nowhere to go cause you ain't got no one to ride

I'm getting money ain't no one to whine and die

On my way up and stress as fuck but I'll be fine

I've learned no matter what life will never be peaches

No matter what you do there will always be them leeches

Teachers taught and on Sunday we heard the preachers

But all I wanted was y'all standing in the bleachers

With me coming at you speakers like a motherfucker

Man this life here been a motherfucker

It's full of these out to get you's out here trying to turn you to another sucker

I know this shit can get you down but pick your head up brother

This life has been a motherfucker

I know this shit can get you down but pick your head up brother

Man this life has been a motherfucker

But pick your head up brother

Ain't been myself these days been feeling down

My squad be with me but it's like no one's around

I'm on this throne with nobody to share the crown

On my way up and for some reason I'm still down

How do you smile when all you wanna do is cry

Nowhere to go cause you ain't got no one to ride

I'm getting money ain't no one to whine and die

On my way up and stress as fuck but I'll be fine