Retroactive Lyrics

Wish there was a way to wish away all this shame

All these social networks they just enlighten the flame

While I'm watching my self worth flicker in front of my eyes

Send me spiralling in hurt through til the end of the night

Getting thoughts about my future and they bringing me back

Into a endless way of thinking that stabs me in the

I'm endlessly obsessive with the sadness inside of me

Although the merits of my prospects always seem to not bother me

All these long messages they say imma piece of shit

I don't care if you ain't meant it it's not even up in the air

Non-stop we argue constantly like coach and his favourite prodigy

The things I can't un-think are still things that shouldn't bother me

And how come when I think about you I think about ex-property

Year down the line I still think about in red

Like is it something inside of me was it something you said

By now I know it's not okay to think the way I did

I don't wanna hold me back

But I keep thinking I'll overreact

And when I keep on thinking this way

Maybe I'm better off holding my aim

You say you like to be alone that's not a problem

I'm sure that we can keep it that way

And when you like to hold me to a junction

And tell me that I'm the problem

I can plan a crash inside of the lane

And you feel like I never listen but when I'm tryna show work and you don't even acknowledge anything that you heard

And you pin it all on me when sure I have made some fault but you can't even say sorry for things that you have done that's absurd

I'm really tired I'm feeling reckless I'm getting worried bout things draw that your attention

We going out and I see them step in

My heart pounds and I'm worried bout your affection

I'm having panic attacks can't let them see me cry

Because I'm hurt I spill my heart out on a track

but to the people cos I'm vulnerable it seems to make me lack

I don't wanna hold me back

But I keep thinking I'll overreact

And when I keep on thinking this way

Maybe I'm better off holding my aim