Collapse ft. Ras-hop Lyrics

Well I can build it all up pull myself right out of that dirt

And I can pull it down just as fast and say I'm not hurt

I can make brash decisions say it's mental illness

Then I'll disappear for weeks

Lock myself in the house and never wonder what's happening on the streets

I don't really care anymore about making plans

They fall through and I don't really know what for everything comes to an end

Can't say anything feels the same, anything I did for fun

If I had to think about it too much depression is suspect number one

I will wait so patiently for someone to come rescue me

But I don't want it to be myself this time

I'm falling for my own pantomime

Gaslit myself too hard and I'm falling through the stars

And I don't wanna fall into a relapse so I

Gotta collapse, I let it collapse

Well I can cry it all out wait until I'm no longer manic

I can scream and cry and punch the wall and then I truly panic

Have I recovered or have I smothered the symptoms so deep

They ask what's wrong and I say I'm tired, that I just need to sleep

I will wait so patiently for someone to come rescue me

It cannot be myself this time

I'm falling for my own pantomime

I will gaslight myself so hard

I do not know what's the truth anymore

There is a pending relapse

But everything is just collapsed