Proud Lyrics

Spent so much time just trying to be unstoppable

Sitting in the spot, plotting how I'ma dodge these obstacles

When they off you ain't much of a process on dropping you

Getting shit done but they don't care if you got a lot to do

Even as a kid I was always hearing I'm proud of you

But what if that don't got much, meaning if you blow it all

Gotta fix it cause I know my spending been on overhaul

Who exactly am I to pretend like I know it all

But that's my way of trying to keep you proud

And what I don't know I'll learn now

Won't take me long to figure it out

My biggest fear of all is letting somebody down

Learning how to triumph through these different trials

But that's my way of trying to keep you proud

And what I don't know I'll learn now

Won't take me long to figure it out

My biggest fear of all is letting somebody down

Learning how to triumph through these different trials

Spent so much time saying I got past the rough shit

Knowing that through me doing that it was still some fuck shit

Few sprinkles of good but still some interruptions

But I'm here to talk about it so I guess I should be appreciative

That I leveled up and got accustomed

And that the people I got around still love me

But imma still discuss the good, bad, and the ugly

Cause I can't be pretending that certain shit ain't above me

But that's my way of trying to keep you proud

Let me take a second as I have been to explore my mental

Lots of thoughts that cross my mind, some coincidental

Maybe I shouldn't give a damn, it could all be so simple

Maybe it's the bad things that get me through these instrumentals

Been hard to express myself but God be sending signals

And I know they be loud when I be stuck on what I didn't do

But shit, everybody's standards different when it comes to potential

So what's the point of my face glued to the screen like a kid with a Kindle

What's the point of me stating that I'm just misunderstood

So if I overstated that I'm guessing that part's on me

But I don't let it hinder ability

To speak out on my needs, to dot my I's and cross my T's

And keep people up to speed

Not everybody gives a fuck that you feel more relieved

Of what you might have achieved

Or that over time you feel more complete

If you comparing yourself to somebody else that been did it

The first step you won't leave

And that shit old

My therapist told me to reach out more

But sometimes you gotta put your arms in your sleeves

Cause this shit cold

Ain't heard from you in months and I'm done

Asking if you good cause I assume

If you can read, you can breathe

Hope that hit home

Good memories always hit the deepest

The matriarch on my pop's side of the family gone

So when it comes to loving memories I ain't eager

I'm just trying to be able to say I ain't fumbled

I be so off the grid I'm wondering who's sending bat signals

To people I ain't heard from in years

To ask me for money

I'm talking about people so far out of touch

They gotta dig through the grates

And go through ten people they might have been closer to

That stayed with it on them

I know I bought up therapy a couple times

But I wish it wasn't frowned upon in families

Cause that man up shit

Y'all be on, gonna make a lot of us crumble

But that's my way of trying to keep you proud

And what I don't know I'll learn now

Won't take me long to figure it out

My biggest fear of all is letting somebody down