Soundtrack (30's Version) Lyrics

Third grade, they carried me along the way

Grew up a bad kid, so being good felt out of place

Some people didn't think it would work, but I still stayed

So many school changes, didn't know where to behave

It was the start of something good

Built a bond with the other side on a consistent level

And it's crazy how the stars align

Woulda never knew I was a poet and ran laps to a success story

Cause who knows if I'd even rap

Gracious, grateful, thankful, memories made

You and Grandma L did so much for the city, y'all deserved a parade

Didn't think I'd have to go down this avenue and be on this page

But hope y'all having a good rest up there seeing all the roads you paved

So who you rocking with

Had to take a second to unpack a lot of shit

Got a newfound confidence, no cockiness

Learned if it ain't gon' be me, then who's stopping it

This beat sounds like some shit I'd thank my people to

How selfish would it be if I didn't give flowers to the people who helped me out but we'll be here all night

So I'ma charge it to the game, cause I know people got shit to do

To the ones that slept on me, I hope it ain't a Serta

My ex turned out to be no different from the people who hurt her

Sometimes you gotta take a step back to discover purpose

At first you'd probably think it's like getting away with murder

Becoming some steps closer to attacking the goals I set for myself

But lately it's been a disaster, you know

Sometimes it takes bad things to put you back on your toes

And if you ever step on my shit, hope it splash on your clothes

I'm pretty reloaded, had to step back and get it in motion

I'm way too focused, had to remind myself

How many times am I gon' say I looked in the mirror to remind myself that I'm that nigga

Even though that ain't my term of endearment

But since we here, we might as well go on, get it clear

Man, it really ain't the year

But let me remember what life was like before I got to a point where I wished that I was near

In any proximity, to the person that got his shit together

Probably why I look at my problems just like whatever

So much bad shit on the news, it's like we'll never win

Trying not to go back to having the smallest things

Seem like it's something that I put too much merit in

I like positive words, them shits really be heaven sent

But that shows you who really cares, it's evident

Just don't confuse my steps back with negligence

Sometimes I gotta reflect on where I'm at again

Or else I wouldn't have made the time to put the time in

Damn near kinda killed the concept of slidin' except

I'm with a dime, I'm in the process of slidin' in

Hold on, my bad

You know how my mind might get unhinged like Jorja Smith's old comments

Hold the camera on me, but it's not that content

Hoping they don't shoot, cause you know this environment

I'm just trying to win

And if that's too much to ask, then I won't ask again

I got the answers and it took me picking up this pen

To realize this next chapter's some shit we gotta mend

Gotta remember losses before and after

When going through hell, it's like you gotta run through faster

Me sitting through a podcast ain't the only reason that I resume laughter

You can never write me off, I think I wrote so much

Three albums in three years, ask me if I took a week off

Safe to say it's God behind the mask, though

And I'm grateful

Went from at one point wanting to (redacted) to never feeling more alive

What more could you ask for

Crazy times had me uncertain on what to call it

Mad people just came and went, but I'm here, so it ain't all that awful

Living life so indecisive, I came across all of the thoughts

About how we would try and write this and make it all come out flawless

I'm freestyling at this point

Purposeful optimism, I think I found that I'm in a decent mood

So pardon me if I sound mad

And ever since I decided to get up and go to therapy

I roll with the punches in life for the sake of a good soundtrack, bitch