The End Lyrics

This is the end

A farewell to an everlasting pretend

Time to stop acting like I don't offend

Or that my mind ain't in a constant descend

Been depressed since fifteen, that I can't defend

Can't deny my mind's in a downward trend

I'm the most fragile shell I've ever been

If i knew I'd end up like this I'd have finished at seventeen

Because I've hit a dead-end worse than ever before

Ain't no straightening this bend, it's wired to the core

I'm unwell in the head and my pride is sore

I feel well undead, a shadow and no more

I've chosen the train as the cure-it-all pill

Instant death that requires minimal skill

And after the wake dies of the mourn and grief

You'll unload my burden that came with this thief

I'm the everlasting second

For a second I thought death would no longer beckon

But it does and it is and I can't escape I reckon

But at least I can choose that it'll only take a second

Because failure's my description, every shot I missed it

Plagued by addiction and every night I kissed it

Beaten into submission never dared to risk it

To make my escape, still I'm here with my omissions

After catapulting myself into the fucking deep end

I'm drowning and seeing for myself I can't fend

Astounded by the amount of negativity and

Confounded because my life tastes bitter, not bland

I paved my own path here with years of denial

Every word I write now is my tears in a vial

Hoping one day they can be put on exhibit

And my estate benefit from what I inhibit

Never been the type to really ask for help

So I helped myself to another bottle off the shelf

That's how I dealt with internal shit all my life

So when you see the sun shine I see it's painfully bright

But I keep losing focus so I paint it with pride

Outside I seem fine but I'm dead inside

Can't find my own place, these blurs won't decline

A paralyzing disease that's crippling my mind

To my loved ones with the why's, remember the stare

The answer's in the void in my eyes behind the glare

Apologizing to those who did actually care

I'll disappoint you for the very last time I swear

And to my kids

Fuck