Nihilistic Deathbed Lyrics

Stop, take a step back and check, my my my

Slob, can't hold a job, inspect, why why why

Basket case, mind laid waste, lie lie lie

Hazard ace, flight risk face, die die die

Held back by my family from offing myself

I cough and I belch, plan my coffin in stealth

Safe was the way I played the cards I was dealt

Now my heart screams for help, full of scars that I felt

Never one to risk it, never was a fucking misfit

Every chance that I found, found a reason and pissed it

Everlasting martyr with a blade to my artery

Though nevermore a bother as my pump starts stuttering

Room gets quiet, vivid colors dancing around on my eyelids

I brood in silence, as I see another kind of life passing by me

Tick tock tick tock

Hands of time go tick tock

Drip drop drip drop

Blood on the hands goes drip drop

Steadfast faith in myself on my nihilistic deathbed

Expectations all met on my nihilistic deathbed

Game, set, match, yep, on my nihilistic deathbed

Illusions and lies breastfed on my nihilistic deathbed

Everything I want to fill the void in my life

A distraction from the question I avoid in my strife

What the fuck if my balls were rife

And I wasn't busy picking death's door with a knife

Acidic self-doubt is my ball and my chain

So I hide it in stout because the window need a pane

All the world to gain, only bottles I've slain

I've become my worst fear, a spectacular fail

Cause I fumbled my gears, I slid and stalled

Now I'm stuck with my life, running from withdrawals

And I'm hiding from my wife, seeing empty halls

With no place for me, hearing reaper's calls

I burned the fuck out barking up the wrong tree

Now I've lost my route, I'm in a fog, on the sea

But dad can't pout because a rock I need to be

So I drown my mind and fake a sick leave

Room gets quiet, vivid colors dancing around on my eyelids

I brood in silence, as I see another kind of life passing by me

Tick tock tick tock

Hands of time go tick tock

Drip drop drip drop

Blood on the hands goes drip drop

Steadfast faith in myself on my nihilistic deathbed

Expectations all met on my nihilistic deathbed

Game, set, match, yep, on my nihilistic deathbed

Illusions and lies breastfed on my nihilistic deathbed