Reflecting Lyrics

Reflecting upon all that has been

Putting it into words

Rhymn-J

Life was truly bliss when I didn’t care about the clock because

I was all of six busy riding my toy horse, this was

Back in time before the beats and long before the bars, stacking

Building blocks minus the need to be at the top (Whoa)

Friends were just a call away

Kept playing games all the day

Fake tummy ache meant holiday

Come evening running back to play

Thought all this would never change

Hoped all this would stay the same

Like the rocking wooden horse that moved but never really moved away

One fine day brother moved away

Down to a city in a southern state

Was to sudden for me to say,

“Please halt, don’t you end up in that train”

I pretended like I didn’t care

Then spent some nights scared

Slowly life changed

The quiet in the house was quite strange

Picked the phone and dialled some friends right away

Engaged tone on those, others were out of coverage

Then loneliness, my only best friend kept showing up

Knowing this phase won’t last, I still hated growing up

I did

Everything changed

All too sudden

Teenage troubles got life down from bad to worse

Impatience on occasions blurred lines between love and lust

Blood ties grew colder melting my faith in trust

Then to escape the heart ache I was asked to smoke some stuff

By false friends I could not count on, let alone seek their advice

I was wise enough to pay heed to the voice inside

Need of the hour required that I stay off the vice

I obliged and asked god to show me my higher side

He stated I keep patience, my learnings will help me see

That fate is one’s destination but the journey holds the key

Though this epiphany didn’t fully ring in until recently

Back then I was naive, posted these thoughts on FB

Felt it helped score me ladies balling like I was some Steph C

Messed up with dopamine hoping that love will set me free

Rested self in external love when love needed self to precede it!

Thought I was coasting the dating scene well informed

Relationship rollercoasters I didn’t have my seat belts on

The highs took me out of this world and lows were bad trips

Those were like cheap online courses filled up with full of bad tips

By which I mean, it was a waste of time and waste of wealth

ROI derived amounted to a fucked up self

Well couldn’t help

I wish all the life’s trials didn’t exist

Was in denial of it, I admit, now here’s the point straight up

Life gives its test first and all of its lessons later