afteR egypt (february 21') Lyrics

Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom

Well, who am I to keep you down?

It's only right that you should play the way you feel it

But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness

Say I wanted freedom

But what's really freedom?

When I been caught lying and cheating and killing the feeling of love

Nothing can heal it the wounds I've inflicted

Ask god for forgiveness

But that won't heal wounds that I cut in my victim Kristen my lover now that shit is history

I Don't deserve her, honestly i don't deserve her

She was an angel and he was a demon under cover

Living in a moment

Running from the lonely

Head is on backwards

I can see hindsight only

Know that the timing ain't right

But I gotta get on this flight

You're the only one I could see as my wife

What the hell I cannot believe I lost my sight for a, good woman

For no reason, so selfish baby I can't believe it

She was everything that I ever needed

Ay

I regret not respecting you as a woman

I regret not appreciating what I had

I regret hurting everyone of your feelings

All I can think about my mind a mile a minute

As Im speeding in a Kia down the 101

Not sure what you doing when you see me there

From that cliff will you throw me or leave me there

Either way I don't know I feel unprepared

Haven't slept in two days just to make it here

Hit the bank grab your money and the flowers yeah

I'm in a rush tryna get to the spot call the Mariachi tell em to hurry (Before) she arrives

Yeah it's true I ordered a Mariachi band to meet me at the top of a hillside in La Jolla

A heavy heart, not knowing what she was gonna think

She might think I'm crazy for this

It's been uh, it's been six months since we've seen each other

There's a lot of emotions a lot of feelings between us we haven't really worked out

And I, don't know what she's gonna say but

Please listen carefully

This is me telling the truth air it out for the world to see

I wasn't round for her graduation

I put paper chasing over human nature

It's bittersweet, last spring was supposed to be in Italy

I know if I love you then I gotta set you free

And if change gon' come then it starts with me (Yeah)

There she go, to Cali, all new friends, all new scene

Cut me off she blocked my phone ya she hates me

Lonely Je Suis I need to be alone again it's farewell

But I set you up again thought you was meeting a friend

By the ocean what a fucked up fairytale

I met you round 4:45

When you walked up we lock eyes

Sorry I showed up you were shocked and surprised

She couldn't believe I was standing in sight

Ima ghost from her path that she wishes would die

Ima ghost from her past she can't look in the eye without tears falling by her side

You gotta just let go, move on, move on it's alright

I'm killing the ego I know that's what's caused me my problems

I gotta respect her and give her her space for the first time

It's time to move on I hope you live your best life