In The Light ft. Meaghan Murphy Lyrics

Up for 3 days straight, sittin' here wide awake

No appetite but still got a lot on my plate

No rest for the wicked, I'm still payin' for some sins

I know I'm the one who made this bed I'm layin' in

My whole life I knew this was no way to live

In the dark, tryin' to switch to light like Aunt Viv

I'm not addicted, I'm just goin' through a storm now

That's what I tell myself when I need to calm down

Been goin' through it since the day I left the court house

Pulled up on Boylston and got drunk at the Pour House

Won't bore you with details, I'm just tryin' to prevail

Missed out on a lot of blessings but I need them even more now

Still ain't right with how it all went down

Watchin' my friends disappear, we in the end game now

Had lots of people in my circle but no one in my corner

Had to see the signs to know it was out of order

These changing winds that force us apart

Lead us away through the cold winter night

These voices call my name in the dark

Lost in the words they say and blinded in the light

I can't let you get close

I can't let you get close

I can't let you get close

I can't let you get close

I missed Ryan's wedding, missed Chuck's too

Sometimes it's like my anxiety's this big 'fuck you'

And there's nothin' much I can do

Except get right back to business, mic check, 1, 2

My man asked me if I'm still gon' do the music

The city down bad, he think they could really use it

Could see it in his eyes, he ain't recognize my face

I ain't have the words to tell him that I'm in a different place

How you suppose to fill a void you never knew it was hollow

I guess you could add up all this Adderall I swallowed

Tryin' to find a message at the bottom of this bottle

Afraid to wake up and do it all again tomorrow

Searchin' for Heaven but livin' in Hell though

Hit rock bottom and life followed up with the People's Elbow

Can't lament over what it all meant

Or waste time wishin' that my time was better spent

What happens next is up to the man above me

Say my goodbyes and disappear somewhere sunny

Maybe me and Melanie will buy a spot out in the country

Quiet, big space, we could let the kids run free

But for now I still got scars that need healing, cards that need dealing

The car got no ceiling

The money got no feelings, this bullet got no conscience

One day at a time, I got no other options

These changing winds that force us apart

Lead us away through the cold winter night

These voices call my name in the dark

Lost in the words they say and blinded in the light

I can't let you get close

I can't let you get close

I can't let you get close

I can't let you get close