Stay Wide Awake ft. Traiyce De Lyrics

I just realized you can't change the channel on the mirror

So I'm channeling my inner Jane Eyre

Can you hear her?

Self-critical is easy when you're self-absorbed

But I could ill afford to ignore my issues just to focus on yours

'Cause yours might intrigue me and even entertain me

But mine sustain me just as much as they defame me

Breathing life like fire, word to Chris Cornell

It's insane

Sometimes I feel like I'll never regain the sane me

Morals fallin' apart, I'm still claimin' it's art

They said that I would change, and I denied it from the start

And "It is what it is" is how I justify it now

Back then I used to hate the baggage, ironically I supply it now

Held up by all the hang-ups that tie me down

Fell in love with the feeling of fallin' down

Back against the ropes, they're hopin' I'm rope-a-dopin'

But I'm just hopin' my hope becomes a little less hopeless

In your heart I'm flawed and it's more than I can take

Dreams seem so far, so I stay wide awake

Scared to let my eyes close

Please don't fall asleep

If you swear you won't let go, I'll be yours to keep

When I was 16, I wiped tears from Arianna's eyes

And I was nobody, but she made me feel idolized

And I wanted to be a father, so I could out-father mine

'Cause mine liked to wander, and he hated to apologize

And he and mom would split up after every hiccup

And I'm at school wonderin' if I'ma get picked up

You just left like you were so ready to move on

But you could've at least had the decency to stay gone

All those years you made me think I wasn't good enough

But goddammit, motherfucker, I never stood you up

Never walked out on you, and you were never lied to

And to think all those years, I wanted to be like you

But I'm nothin' like you, I swear I'm nothin' like you

And I wish I wasn't proud of that

But damn it, I despise you, 'cause I love you

Feel free to love me back, you son of a bitch

I can't believe I ever wanted this

In your heart I'm flawed and it's more than I can take

Dreams seem so far, so I stay wide awake

Scared to let my eyes close

Please don't fall asleep

If you swear you won't let go, I'll be yours to keep

Before I knew it, the days had turned into years

Now I can't tell the difference between the rain and the tears

And it's hard not to be self-conscious

When the safest place for you for years has been your therapist's office

She asked what I want to do with my life, I said off it

She asked if that was a recurrin' thought, I said often

Do you know what it's like to be alive in a coffin?

Waitin' to see the light and being blinded by the darkness?

Sometimes I think I hate myself more than the haters do

Oh, you hate Greatness? Well, yeah, I hate him too

Harvey Dent's the only thing I can equate it to

Can't capture the moment when reality's escaping you

Sometimes I want to take a lie and make it true

If it'll make the day easier to make it through

But there's so much on the line, I'm aware of the stakes

You should never sleep on me, stay wide awake

In your heart I'm flawed and it's more than I can take

Dreams seem so far, so I stay wide awake

Scared to let my eyes close

Please don't fall asleep

If you swear you won't let go, I'll be yours to keep