letter Lyrics

I wonder if I'm worth it

Ended up far away

Cause I kept on working

I'm still fighting today

Past mistakes

Have found their way

To hold me down

I'm not okay

Now I'm writing sad lyrics

While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit

I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it

My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated

Lookin' at my past, never felt this harder

Hardships, brought tears to my mother

Dad, on the other side, fighting me and fighting life

Wants me off the cigarettes, sorry, won't happen tonight

I'm feeling nostalgic

All the choices that I made, brought in something tragic

Unaware of consequences, in my world of plastic

Growing up, I realized that it's not fantastic

To do the things I've done

I cheated and I lied, what have I become

Pretending to be someone else, I tried to run

But no more, this darkness I'll fight, 'till I'll be long gone

Now I'm writing sad lyrics

While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit

I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it

My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated

I can't erase all the time I wasted

Running from the truth got me sad and fainted

Singing my regrets, getting way over my chest

I need power to move on, maybe one day I'll be blessed

Fast forward, trials and tribulations

So different, always in disconnections

Showing you my point, I don't think you wanna hear me

I know where it goes and I know it won't be easy

The party's over again and I ain't sleeping

It's 4 am and I'm blowing smoke out to the ceiling

Looking for my peace, but I'm drinking alcohol

Way too much into my system, I'm about to lose it all

My memory lane is full

Tears left in people's eyes, I'm feeling so ridiculed

Bad choices took a toll on everything I do, demons join me in the booth

Pessimistic and alone, there's no room for someone new

Now I'm writing sad lyrics

While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit

I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it

My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated

I can't erase all the time I wasted

Running from the truth got me sad and fainted

Singing my regrets, getting way over my chest

I need power to move on, maybe one day I'll be blessed

Maybe one day I'll be blessed

Maybe I could've stopped it

Prevent it all from happening

If I only had patience

To act better about it

Time would've showed

Everything we missed and needed

We would've known

What to do to feel completed

Playing the chances now

It could've turned around

This way of acting loud

Fights would've stopped somehow

We were impulsive

Easygoing with choices

Instead of one

Together we are two voices

I wonder if I'm worth it

Ended up far away

Cause I kept on working

I'm still fighting today

Past mistakes

Have found their way

To hold me down

I'm not okay

Now I'm writing sad lyrics

While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit

I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it

My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated

I can't erase all the time I wasted

Running from the truth got me sad and fainted

Singing my regrets, getting way over my chest

I need power to move on, maybe one day I'll be blessed