If I'm being Honest Lyrics

If I'm being honest

The reason I be so angry sometimes

Is because you remind me of a struggle

I didn't imagine overcoming by myself

See Daddy laid up with me

Contributed to your creation

But now I don't have his help

And I see his face when you get upset

I see his smile when I make you happy

I see his walk in your legs

But I don't want you running down his path

Not trying to say anything bad

About ya Dad but

Some of the mistakes he's made

Leaves us having to pay

Sure he's locked up

But he's not the only one

Doing time

If I'm being honest

I feel like if I'm not hard on you

The world will destroy you

I find myself overprotecting you

From history

Did you know it repeats itself

And just like a mother

Tired of repeating herself

She can take out a belt

And disperse a few licks

That'll leave you with the ugliest cry

Leave you screaming and shouting

Then gasping for air silently

Trying to catch your breath

I couldn't take losing you

To the laws of the land

That'll lead you to the grave

Or into a corrupt system

We're living in the same days

Different plantation

Massa catch you outside

At the wrong time

You may not survive his whooping

Understand

I can't show you how to be a man

But I can try my best to teach you

That's why it kills me to know

That you're a visual learner

You seeing men

Walk in and out on me

Ain't something that I planned

To let you see

If I'm being honest

I try to put up

With certain things

So you have a regular routine

Better stability

So they won't make

Another statistic out of me

And a hashtag out of you

If I'm being honest

Sometimes

I'm scared to life for you

I'm doing LIFE for you

I'm fighting every day

To insure the whole world knows

Your life matters too

You better know that I love you

More than I love myself

In the purest form of unconditional

Like taking vows

Through sickness and in health

Til death do us part

I'm going to always do my part

So let's fix each other's crowns

You're never alone

As long as I'm around

When our feet hit the ground

The universe makes a sound

If I'm being honest