What's a Friend But a Future Wound? ft. Time, AwareNess & TAMARA Lyrics

What's a friend but a future wound a friendly gun that'll shoot you soon

Running from these mobs and goons, dark like night in the afternoon

Eyes like nicotine moons, my coffin is my cocoon

In these ruins casting runes, trying to outlast this doom

Born a loner, sitting in corners, never had friends in school

Thought I was a stoner, another misnomer, I smile and played the fool

Made friends with the weirdos

The goths and the rap heads, and the metal head cholos too

They thought I sold drugs but I sold my thoughts, my solos were written with truth

Betrayed for money ain't it funny and we were on that conscious shit

Insecurity and ego and a high libido, a recipe for some monster shit

Ghosted so many I must be haunted, in cat's cradle with Vonnegut

Armageddon in retrospect, in 45 the comet hit

I'm an INFJ, a neurotic Aquarius, I let people in to my own detriment

Protect your energy, love it and cherish it, take the fake and dismember it

I didn't lose a friend, I just realized I never had one

But I am my wounds, I am my friends, even if I'm a bad one

You thought you had me again

Now I gotta push your out, push you out

I slow it down, slow it down

I'll write the start of the end

Here's how it goes yeah

I'm gonna push you out, love me down

Keep my space when you're around

What do you do when the person you'd take a bullet for is aiming at you?

I'm loyal to a fault, this red stain is the proof, there's hate in you

A welting flower with rotten roots, you dumped your poison on me

My life was irrelevant with toxic talk you bombed me

An emotional vampire, afraid of light afraid of reflection

Afraid of truth, I'm not angry, I'm not fake, that's your projection

You never wanted advise, your demons just wanted permission

You were never a friend, just a lying leech who couldn't listen

I felt like nothing, insignificant, you weren't there for my darkest nights

You were only there for your addictions, the gas light hid your darker side

You never celebrated my successes or commented on my creations

I guess you were jealous of my crumbs, while I gave you plates of patience

You called to talk about yourself another nagging narcissist

I'll never be an architect just a bridge dedicated arsonist

When I was depressed and wanted to vent you made it about yourself

I should of learned it the first time but it took me till the 12th

What's the difference between a goal, an expectation and a deception?

Every secret I told you from my soul was forged into a weapon

I'm everyone that hurt me, I'm everyone I hurt

Grandma used to say, we pick the ones we think we deserve

But what's a human without a scar, what's a planet without a star?

I don't care if you'll betray me I just want to love who you are

She said don't fear the future, roll the dice, give it your all

She said death isn't sad, the sad thing is some never live at all