#wrong Lyrics

I'm in your head because I am your head

I'm everything you never wanted

I'll stop you mid-sentence and make you choose the right words

I'll make you consider the ramifications of your every action and thought

That goes through your head

That goes through me

Because I have to be right

I have to be in the right

Because I cannot be wrong

Being wrong is dangerous

So I'll fill you with the worst anxiety you can feel

Until you bow to my pressure

Until you fold up into whatever shape I dictate

Until you start to sweat and panic

Because you can't see the right thing to do

And you'll hate me as much as you hate yourself

You'll wish you could change

You'll wish you could stop being crazy

But you can't

Because I am you and you are me

And there's nothing you can do about it

I'm tired of giving voice to you

You aren't me

And if I'm stuck with you, then you're stuck with me too

So get used to it and quit navel gazing

God

It's like I'm trapped in a constant meta analysis of my own mind

I'll try to identify thoughts that get "stuck"

To know where they're coming from and why I'm having them

And if a thought is wrong, then I have to stop having it

And I have to condemn it if it comes to mind again

Or else it proves that I'm wrong

And that word, "wrong," is difficult to express with language

It comprises ideas like bad, evil, stupid, incorrect, dangerous, sinful

It's less a word and more an anxious feeling that sets my brain on fire

It's like a physical pressure that builds up in my head until I obey my anxiety

It permeates everything I do

It's more than just being factually or intellectually wrong

There's also the fear that there's something deeply

And fundamentally wrong with me

That I have to discover the flaw and fix it

So that I can be right and protect people from myself

This has gotten me to believe some pretty weird things about myself

Over the years, but I'm starting to catch on to the tricks my mind plays on me

Some days it's easy to manage my thoughts

Other days are a complete non-starter

It's been easier for the last week or so

But who knows what will happen in the years to come

I'm hopeful, though, and I think I'm going to be OK

I'm going to be OK