Aza's Candle Lyrics

Don't blow out you candle, Aza

Don't blow it out -- just keep breathing

Inhale deeply, exhale slowly

Do it until the anxiety stops

Enough to make the flame flicker, but not enough to extinguish it

But it's not working today

Nothing works today

The hydroxyzine is mostly useless as usual, but I took one anyway

So I guess I'll just take another and stand here and breathe

Breathe on your candle, Aza

Breathe and hope it passes eventually

It always does

But it always comes back

But it always passes

But it always comes back

Four hours later, it's passed but it's still there

It's poised, lurking around in the back of my mind

It's a scared, lonely animal and I am its cage:

My bars are made of dialectical behavioral techniques and psychiatric drugs

But even the bars disintegrate from time to time,

And I'm left alone with the animal and my candle

It wants me to be sure so that it knows it can be safe

At least for a little while

One day later and the flame has gotten so small that I'm afraid to blow on it

It flickers all on its own and I don't know if it's going to stay lit or blow out

I'm trying to hold on but it's gripping me so tightly

Don't blow out your candle, Aza