Not Giving Up ft. Valious Lyrics

Is this really what you want from me

I am lonely cause I had to be

I don't wanna say it over and over

Taking drugs hate being sober

I just need to carry on

Need to get my money up

You are a distraction

I can see that you don't give a fuck

But you know I'm not giving up

When I was young

I had a dream I was gonna grow up all alone

I started to talk about my life

Like how I found this shit on my own

Got scars on my heart

When we were apart

It was hard to talk on the phone

I needed to vent

I couldn't tell nobody

So, I had to write this song

I had nobody to take me serious

I'm alone

I been backstabbed too many times

I couldn't even show when I was in sown

I been wondering why this shit happened to me

Back then no one took control of me

They did not believe in me

They said I wouldn't make it

They didn't have faith in me

I'm thinking ahead of my future

I don't need y'all to ruin it with these rumors

I can't even control my own sense of humor

All this depressed shit gots to go it hurt like a tumor

Is this really what you want from me

I am lonely cause I had to be

I don't wanna say it over and over

Taking drugs hate being sober

I just need to carry on

Need to get my money up

You are a distraction

I can see that you don't give a fuck

But you know I'm not giving up

I got love on my mind

But I got hate in my heart

Them n***** left and said

That I wasn't doing my part

I don't like the life that I have

I just wanna restart

It's time to let go of everybody

I just need some time apart

Suicidal thoughts

I told y'all n***** I'm a boss

They keep treating me like I'm some kid

Playing at the sandbox

This is not what I wanna do

They been acting brand new

I got emotions I can't even tell my bros about

Cause they don't have a clue

Laid back on my bed back home

Thinking how the way shit was

I told my sister she was fake and not a real one

Just because

Nobody can tell me shit

While I'm still healing from this pain

I asked God could he help me

Cause I couldn't get inside my brain

Is this really what you want from me

I am lonely cause I had to be

I don't wanna say it over and over

Taking drugs hate being sober

I just need to carry on

Need to get my money up

You are a distraction

I can see that you don't give a fuck

But you know I'm not giving up