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You know I lost my grandma

When I was only 4 years old

Ever since she left

My heart has felt so cold

I grew up wondering what people thought about me

For all the pain that I was going thru

All I wanted was to scream

My mama held me tight when I going thru some changes

I thought I was normal

But you know a n**** go thru phases

All dat shit I went thru is like a book

I'm flippin' pages

I just know there's somewhere in my heart

That I'm really courageous

Bullet to my chest

I been feeling really stressed

Now I got n***** hating on me I never got no rest

My body is on ice ever since them n*****

Clowned the way that I dressed

They killed my heart

They killed my soul

I know one day I will be blessed

Yeah

I just don't understand the way the people look at me

Sometimes I wish they would not

Look at me so differently

They saw that other person

That wasn't the n**** they was trying to see

I'm bout to find the way who I am

And show them who I'm tryna be

I got the S on my chest

But imma need a bulletproof vest

Them n***** lame they left

It was probably for the best, yeah

All I had was a broken heart ever year

I just hope one day I will find the one that will always be there

She played with my emotions

That ain't even fair

She told them she was using me

She didn't even care

Now I'm tryna do my thing

Not out here tryna sing

She always blowing up my phone

All I ever hear was da ding

God please help me become a

King instead of a nightmare

I will keep praying to him

I will keep saying my prayers

I've got to find my lost soul

That's really my only goal

I regret the way I treated you

Imma gain control

Heart been broken too many times

I need it to be whole

I might have to smoke weed

That's what I got to roll

I tried to change myself

I done given myself some different roles

There's a lot of shit that's going on in my head

While I'm taking my stroll

I done disappointed my family

It's time to take control

I done disappointed my family

It's time to take control

I done disappointed my family

It's time to take control

I done disappointed my family

It's time to take control

You know I lost my grandma

When I was only 4 years old

Ever since she left

My heart has felt so cold

I grew up wondering what people thought about me

For all the pain that I was going thru

All I wanted was to scream

My mama held me tight when I going thru some changes

I thought I was normal

But you know a n**** go thru phases

All that shit I went thru is like a book

I'm flippin' pages

I just know there's somewhere in my heart

That I'm really courageous

Bullet to my chest

I been feeling really stressed

Now I got n***** hating on me I never got no rest

My body is on ice ever since them n*****

Clowned the way that I dressed

They killed my heart

They killed my soul

I know one day I will be blessed