What Am I Doing Lyrics

See that why niggas wanna fight you

They're not fighting you… they are fighting ideology…

Hahahaha

Nigga shut the fuck up

Nigga said they fighting ideology

What am I doing

Million dollar fuckin question

What am I pursuing

But by this time this life is over

Hope to have an answer

I'm starting something new

Call me a fuckin transfer

Last year I wanted clarity

That 20/20

I like it like that; Cardi Bad Bunny

Mind so fuckin precious

My mental never clear

Figured the music the perfect place to share

Yeah

Thinking mans world

So what on your mind

Go too much to accomplish

With not enough time

I can't ever sleep

I be we wide awake

Fuck contemplating fitting in when you custom-made

Yeah, Playing with that grey matter's so much pressure

Like how you go from being happy to feeling depression

The same way you go from winning to loosing it all

The same way I rather struggle than see Brenda stressin

Thinkin back on it now we grew up way too fast

And rentals would blame it all on the technology

But as we getting older and we address the trauma

Its prolly cuz the parents didn't offer us apologies

Yeah, but that's a besides the point kid what's on yo mind

The idea that being idle puts me behind

The blinding fact that my past is effectin my future

That's the kinda wound you can fix with a simple suture

Wanna talk about the good but never the trauma

Like this shit ain't get passed down from our mothers and fathers

They don't wanna acknowledge

You know they soon forgetful

Cuz when you being too honest

They say it's disrespectful

And I was taught men could never make mistakes

And every time I step outside i know my life's at stake

Wondering if this'll be my last

That why I'm always smilin'

Man I use it as a mask

Yeah

Tryna find my voice been the hardest thing

I think I found it twice

First when I dealing with bullying back at Arabia Mountain

The other was in Cali, Drexel act like I had changed overnight, uh

Guns out, face down cuz I fit a description

If I told you the story, my nigga you'd think it's fiction

Torrance PD why I can never sleep

Dreams stay turnin' to nightmares

Shout out to Meek

I get lost in my own head cuz I can never settle

Can't lose myself like that man with them double letters

I can't hear them hatin' niggas speakin' at whisper

But hate on meee Scot[t] free like you Jack's sister (Ha)

Over your head, Genius will help you out

Not that conceited so to diss you I won't slow it down

I got the motto tatted on me but you know its hidden

Been like that since i was born

Cuz senior had it written

Wondering if my we used to talks finally settled

A lotta finger pointing'

The pot and the fuckin kettle

Prolly tried to replace me

Cant even be mad

But then again you can't replace some shit you never had

Used to think that my relationship just wouldn't last

Both head strong so arguing is kinda frightening

Protection my heart

I can't repeat the past

That's why it's called falling in love and not gently reclining

'03 Bonnie and Clyde man this shit forever

Told you baby I got you and me versus whomever

Love doesn't see with eyes but rather the mind

Guess that nigga Cupid making all these matches blind

When I'm DC shit don't get much better

Honestly girl, it's a struggle keepin it together

Gotchu in one ear askin' me what's on my mind

Rejectin' shorties in my other at the same time sayin…

I just wanna rock you, all night long

Sometime you just say what's on your mind

Niggas thought that I was done

Man this shit ain't over

We back it again like it's some leftovers

But I finish what I started

On these beats I float

I Call myself the kid cuz what else is a baby GOAT, hmm

Maybe not in music

But in life nigga I'm winning

Daring to be great told I y'all niggas it was hidden

Got House of Bijan makin me custom loafers

Nic and Roxy said they be ready early October

I bet you niggas really don't know shit about it

Yall keep thinkin' that the real drip is balenciaga

Imma let her think that real drip Fasion Nova

Until I put her onto Oscar's now she wanna meet the owner

The wine game got me really actin up

Germans be sending me cases

Cuz i cant get enough

And one didn't make it through customs though

That's tragic

It's all good

Cuz in the wine game sip happens, nigga

Everything I do is mad strategic

That's why so many people wonder what the fuck I'm thinking

Not tryna be perfect man that shits irrational

Not tryna fit witchu in man that shit is laughable

Yeah, my biggest fear has to be discontentment

Imagine a life where people only showed you resentment

Imagine walking through life knowing you have so much to offer

But then when you tell your story they don't believe you're the author

Give you layer after layer im the cake boss

Protect my peace tryna be Melo, give Lavar a call

My generation be so focused on the gender scuffles

In the end my nigga we all deserve to be cuddled

Imma keep kickin like my namesake in '63

That went over her H.E.A…girl I'll bring the D

Man

You shoulda seen 'em when a nigga I went Ivy

Was blinded by the hoes Stevie had to guide me, but

You ever think about it man dating really funny,

Put the chocolate in the egg

And y'all some Easter Bunnies

But then you break up and mad cuz y'all could never grow

And now somebody else is reaping everything you sewed

But life goes on; said this shit in the beginning

Born in down Atlanta but I'm really Philly

Dragon til I die

Man not ashamed to 'mit it

Diploma cost me enough

Nigga I gotta get it

Really hope my younger brother understands

That at my nigga some point you really gotta be a man

Not ever saying that we won't be standin there witchu

But If I'm being honest man this cannot continue

The longest song I've ever done

Just sharing' whats been on my mind

Wishin i could tell you more

But like I said not enough time

Up late cuz a nigga really need some peace

She start an argument thinkin it'll help me sleep

You like this toxic shit and I start to see

Shit gotchu turned on; no Malcom and Marie… then she said to me

This is how it is

You just gotta trust

Give you what you need

I do this shit for us

This is how it is

This is how it goes

I want you in control

I want in my soul

Want you to make me whole