Still Here (Stevesaintjames Archive) Lyrics

I don't know what to do

This quarantine a holocaust and I'm it's fucking Jew

Don't think I'll make it through

If I don't change my colors try to heil hide the blue

Cause otherwise they'll find me and they'll turn me in to you-know-who

Put me in you-know-what

The camps they have for gays, minorities, and dirty sluts

For all the losers that would barely just not make the cut

If you think now's the time to criticize come suck my nuts

"Hey, it's too soon. Not cool. You can't just say that."

Do I look like I fucking care?

I'm going through some issues, don't remind me. I am too aware

Just give me peace and quiet let me die inside my hollow lair

I live in a computer because real life is just unfair

At least there's friends in there; Can't see them otherwise

Constantly trapped inside my mind I'm feeling paralyzed

All the girls I want to share my love with have found other guys

Demons taunt me watch with one hundred thousand pairs of eyes

I honestly just wanna be gone from all this monotony

Of speaking mediocrities, selling it as a prophecy

So maybe I should give up. Maybe I should give in to the botany

Right now I don't know what I really I want from me

But really

Who's gonna care if I die

You only care when I rise up the charts when I fly

They always say they're at my side

Not here for a piece of the pie

That was a lie

When I'm in pain they criticize

I won't let any survive

Dying inside

Always calling me homo or bi

But not a respectable guy, just a bothersome fly

I've been broken way too many times

I'm thinking god hates me because he still keeps me alive

Soul is dead, need a revive

Mind parasite that's inside me continues to thrive

They always say I need a real career

They'll say they're yelling for my own good

But this is all that I can hear

"You're inadequacy got me sick to my stomach

It seems like God had a plan for you but he's already done with it

And he's just had enough of this now he's sending down punishment

You should go try to kill yourself you have no clue how fun it is"

"You've subverted the summit it's time to pursue an end

You're wasting time when you're writing with that superfluous pen

We're making deals with your enemies but you say we're your friends"

Too busy looking for remedies

I don't know of your sinning because

I'm still here in my room

The trash is piling just waiting for my doom

Because just living life is tiring

The flowers are in bloom

But I don't know that

I'm still staring at this screen and no I won't pick up a broom

I'm still here in my room

I'm waking up at noon because I only go to bed when I can see the moon retiring

The end will be here soon

At least I hope so

That's the thing we really don't know

But I've done all I can do

Everyone talks to me worried I've made a mockery

Of me and my whole posse. See that's suicidal comedy

Going crazy? Probably

All I see is my property

Never break the monotony

I don't know what they want from me

Maybe I'm just too cocky

We gotta be more than dollar trees

For all these evil companies so I delve in democracy

A wannabe prodigy written about in prophecies

I think they think I'm awesome

We should go have a debauchery

"Sir, How do you sleep at night

After a day of hate and spite

Jealousy powered mental fights

With you your only kryptonite?"

Well that's the thing I just stay up till 5:00 am

So I can wait as long as possible to sleep away a day of sin

That's just the way it's been

Now no more questions for tonight

But honestly it's such a win explaining myself to you troglodytes

No really, when can we do this again?

How about tomorrow?

I just love the way you all pretend to understand my sorrow

I'd rather die a few years earlier than be alive for this one

Get to bed a 5:00 am but still ain't getting shit done

I'm speaking for the unspeakable things that we've all become

Or maybe I'm just mad that I might die beneath a false sun

Let's just have fun because oblivion won't wait they say

These reckless actions gonna land you at the gates, I pray

But really take a look outside there's so much death and decay

If you want a future then cover your face today

But they say...

Hey- hey- hey stupid bitch all you do is just pathetic

Posting shitty videos on YouTube and on Reddit

Like okay stupid pussy boy you're super sad we get it

Now please go away or end your life I swear you won't regret it

Hey- hey- hey stupid bitch all you do is just pathetic

Posting shitty videos on YouTube and on Reddit

Like okay stupid pussy boy you're super sad we get it

Now please throw away your life so we can all try to forget it

From my perspective seems like everybody hates me

Even my family doesn't know me as of lately

But if you want me gone then go ahead and make me

But I won't go down without a fight turn off your fucking safety, coward

Come fucking kill me, coward

Raise your weapon drop the flowers

But when I die I'll be a martyr then you'll feel my power

I'll haunt you every fucking hour

While my message is invested in; grows louder

And your soul will get devoured

I want to kill just to have something to do

I'm stuck inside because they can't subdue the flu

I'll be surprised if I survive to see things through

This quarantine's a Holocaust and I'm it's fucking Jew!

I'm still here in my room

The trash is piling just waiting for my doom

Because just living life is tiring

The flowers are in bloom

But I don't know that

I'm still staring at this screen and no I won't pick up a broom

I'm still here in my room

I'm waking up at noon because I only go to bed when I can see the moon retiring

The end will be here soon

At least I hope so

That's the thing we really don't know

But I've done all I can do