The loudest scream Lyrics

If I'm depressed I need to smile

But when I smile they're not impressed

So tell me, what you want me to become then

Tell me what to do to be the best

If I'm annoyed then I'm too cold

And if I cry I cry too much

God, shut your mouth mind about your own business, I don't think you can do better than this

What is your name sir

As I though man you want me to change

Yeah Maybe one day, when I'll be laughing inside of a coffin

Didn't break your heart, broke your ego

Didn't chase my dream, made it real

Stop bitching, do we have a deal

Gotta start moving, gotta go fast, I hope my life will be better than that

I wanna win, I wanna love, I wanna worry 'bout nothing at all

If you could understand me, would that be enough? What is the finish line I gotta cross

I'm not afraid, I'm addicted to pain, that is my price and I can't wait to pay

I needed somebody, but that somebody won't help me

Just got some weeks on my future but then my future is empty

At least you could choose your nightmares, so tell me spiders or death

My biggest fear is that I could have too much time left

Oh, but then you say I can't make it, I'm a competitive asshole,

I'm starting sharpen my blade yeah 'cause cause your envy comes natural

The more you try to destroy me the more I keep getting stronger

When I'll be done demonstrating then I'll be dead with a boner

My rage is awful, I'm pretty sure that is by far my worst emotion

When it gets darker can't even see where your facts are

How bizarre, turned the light on but I see how many facts? None

Don't have to ask for permission, this is my turn to be happy

Hope I really could, hope this weight would be less heavy

I'm looking for myself and man Imma find me

Swear I'll get rid of my baggage and once I do I'll shout the loudest scream

I'll shout the loudest scream

I'll shout the loudest scream

The loudest scream

I pulled the trigger

Hope you didn't shit your sheets, I'm not a quitter

I know I gotta fix my shit, I'm getting weaker

But it's hard to stay true when this world's wicked

But you know, I remember well when I used to care

When I believed anyone could have done it better than that

But that is the past, I'm even done with hating myself

Tonight I gave my life a reason, now what comes next