Cold Nights Lyrics

I just wanna make a million dollars

I don't wanna have to worry 'bout the commas

But I can't say that, it'll come back

In every conversation, I'm debatin', doubtin' I can make it

Tripped up, I don't even wanna try

And the girl that I love can't even look me in the eye

I'm slippin' so fast, who the fuck am I

I don't even wanna write 'cause everything I write is shit

Man, I wanna fuckin' quit, is it me or my disease

On my knees, God please, God stop punishing me

What the fuck did I do, do I deserve this

My life, is it worth it

This pain is just hurtin'

I know you can see I'm bruised and I bleed

The most fucked up part is I suffer unseen

The world, they can't see that I'm going through hell

All the words that exist, none describe what I feel

I don't know who I am

Slowly I've drifted, my old self I'm missin'

You with it, I honestly don't give a shit

Trust in my life, it doesn't exist

Would I be missed if I just disappeared

This thought cloudin' my mind all the time

I just question my reason in life

Had a path full of purpose, now I'm just a waste

Fuckin' fighting and stealing shit, why do I do this

I don't wanna do this, I'm just so clueless

Can't cope with emotion, can't stick with devotion

I keep on just pushin' out people that care

Act like it ain't there, my need to be loved

What if I took a shot, go up above

Will it be different with God doing judging

Or would it just end in the dark, all for nothing

I don't wanna go to school

I wanna live by my own rules

Everyone that I know talks down to me

My friends, enemies, even my family

Any place I look, I feel so alone

Nobody is there, the world is cold

What came first, the punishment or the pain

I don't wanna be here anymore, it's hard 'cause

The holidays come and it's always only me

I'm just thinking 'bout how I lost my siblings

They split so fast, no stopping them now

I wanna move back, man, fuck this town

Ain't nothing I love, no reason to stay

I'm stuck here now, I can't get out, I

Despise everything that's surrounding me

And I'm so fucking lost, no way I can be found