After Being Obnoxiously Destructive Lyrics

I used to sit and wonder if you'd even think of me

How in a blink it seemed

To go from us at Disneyland

To no one even speaking see

I know that Storm and Grams was holding back

And sworn to secrecy

Spoken in a coded math

Transformed in broken frequencies

But everyday I thought about it

I stayed distraught and pouted

Wanted you to be with me

And couldn't take the loss amounted

So much more than honestly what

Everything I'd gone and counted

Times about a hundred forty billion times

I'd gone an drowned it

Walking thru the grief

Completely lost and losing sleep

You were honestly the coolest thing

That lost me thru this geek

Who wouldn't even own his fakeness

Flossin thru his teeth

Sittin on the throne

That straight imposter made us weak

And how the fuck you get your kids

Wit all that shit you did

Even god expected Deez would prolly

Go and split your wig

And if I'm speaking honestly

I slowly stopped and flipped a bitch

Right as I was on his street

A .40 cocked to rip his mid

But I could only think of your kids

They don't deserve the madness handed out

For speaking to pigs

You aren't a man

You aren't my family

It's deeper than this

My baby lost years wit her daddy see

The season is sick

And now our back and forth

It barely exists

Dads an addict and his habit formed

Is scary as shit

Seven years ago we had a torch

We'd carry it lit

Then all the sudden I just sat ignored

And buried in sin

There ain't a way for me to

Ever get that time back

I think I might crack

Been contemplating suicide so much lately

I lie back

Think about the dude I was when u arrived

And I snap

Things I did was bukin' crazy

Looting homes with my strap

I sat and cried so much I barely can see

I haven't died because apparently

I'm scared to be free

I lack inside so much

I clearly might just fear being beat

And hope to hear this mic

Go steer me right to cheering and screams

I don't know where this life is taking me

But hope that I can make it free

Override these lonely nights

By showing my uncaged extreme

Glowing like a poltergeist

Explodin' by remote devices

Hooked into the over head recordings

And they know it's Dee

Breathless as I quote em prices

Never less than dope this life is

Bet against so much

I might get head up off your gloated spite since

Everyone's so secular and better

I remain in lanes that change paths n break in half

Than phase back together

A rage that upstage wackness

Plagued rappers never

Complain that my waves back

That stay wack as ever

I fade smack and break backs of babes

That's whenever

If I make tracks I stay snapping flames

That's forever

Ask your bitch she probably handed it down

Either that or tried to handle it and passed it around

I'm making movies on this candid glimpse

Of taxing this town

And holding uzis sighted shooting life

To fasten his crown