Guilt & Grave Markers Lyrics

Playing scratch cards in the driver's seat

In an empty lot

Where I've done spent all my money

And pour out all my luck

And I stare in the rearview mirror

At progenitorial teeth

Crooked incisors in my bloodline

Of the men in my family

I've been chasing loves in states

I say are too far away

Or that I got too tied up in work

To call you on your birthday

You say that the chemo burns

And that you'd like to die with grace

My dad cleaned up your beard

As a final thanks

You've been fighting this off

And I've been neglecting your hospital room

You still remember my name

But the nurse says that it won't be like that soon

You've been fighting this off

And I've been neglecting your hospital room

I say that I gotta go

But I don't have a good reason to

When your legs were a bit more strong

And your lungs didn't match the asphalt

You would take us down to the graveyard

Sit in the shade of the magnolias

We'd weave between the headstones

Leaving flowers for all the unknowns

I would trip as I carried your body

When we laid you to rest there

My sister and I were kids

We would dance in the green space

So unaware of death

And unfazed by the grey

You've been fighting this off

And I've been neglecting your hospital room

You still remember my name

But the nurse says that it won't be like that soon

You've been fighting this off

And I've been neglecting your hospital room

I say that I gotta go

But I don't have a good reason to

And when you were my age

You were building planes for war

And I spent all of my inheritance

On some drugs and a beat up car

Yeah, when you were my age

You were building planes for war

And I'd burn through your inheritance

When I crashed my first car