My Heart Stopped Beating Lyrics

I am not dead, but I'm not alive

I traverse a world I hate on my borrowed time

It was a

Failed suicide back in February when my

Heart stopped beating but still I survived

Cause I was tired of my life, sick and alone

And I was weary in a place I could not call my home

So when I drank 2 bottles, each a 100 tablets

I was gonna say goodbye to a world I disowned

In this place that I call my home, I wanna

Say goodbye to a world I've known, because I'm

Sick and tired of life's bullshit

Sick and tired of my bullshit

My heart stopped beating yet I'm still alive

It was in apathy I tried to take my own life

Cause I was tired of a world where I could not cry

And I was tired of the hope that I could never, ever deny

I was in bed when I prepared to die

It was the cries of a friend that made me save my life

I took an Uber and I went into emergency

They took me in almost immediately when I said

I was so sleepy that I couldn't walk around

I was so tired that I couldn't hear the sound of my

Heart monitor, beeping louder than ever

I stayed awake but I slipped, I couldn't move my two lips

Without any last words I closed my eyes and fell asleep

In this place that I call my home, I wanna

Say goodbye to a world I've known, because I'm

Sick and tired of life's bullshit

Sick and tired of my bullshit

My heart stopped beating yet I'm still alive

It was in apathy I tried to take my own life

Cause I was tired of a world where I could not cry

And I was tired of the hope that I could never, ever deny

When I opened my eyes I was awake

There was no one beside me, but the IV and an ache

When I sighed, this wasn't the way, I wanted to die

All alone in a world where I am scared to try to live

There was an apathy, still I couldn't feel

No remorse or regret, for the trust that I killed

I was a, living zombie, better off dead

But somehow, still alive - I felt stronger than I'd ever been

Bad days, worse days came after

I was walking through the fire alone, still on my own

I was living in a limbo of trauma that I have known

When I decided to get help for the scars that I have sown

And I am still bleeding, still bent, but now I'm fighting

There are times I wish I'd given up, but I'm still trying

And when I, stop moving forward's the day I die

I won't hesitate to try, I am still not afraid of death!

But there are songs to be made, there are people to trust

I've been so busy alive, I don't think that I'll try

To kill myself, not now, hopefully not ever

But the future's unknown, and this won't last forever

So if I try to die again, god knows if I will survive

But there is hope in a life, when I tried to fight

Cause there is apathy, and there's another side to life

At the end of the day, I'm all that I've done right

In this place that I call my home, I wanna

Say goodbye to a world I've known, because I'm

Sick and tired of life's bullshit

Sick and tired of my bullshit

My heart stopped beating yet I'm still alive

It was in apathy I tried to take my own life

Cause I was tired of a world where I could not cry

And I was tired of the hope that I could never, ever deny

I was in hospital beds when I thought of my strife

It was the death of me that brought me back to life