How 2 Find Hope Lyrics

Thinking bout my life and my decisions

And how those decisions transitioned into my position

Shit got me lifted

My momma tripping im hoping that she can find forgiveness

The time is ticking, the life she living got bad decisions

She cant erase it what happened it seem she cant forget it

It keep her livid, it drain her soul and it drain her children

The one that speaking, the one who feel it, i'm really in it

I kept to rapping it kept me living though hard to live it

My life in lyrics, I paint a picture, let's get descriptive

I walk upstairs my mom on the ground praying in the kitchen

I'm praying for her but praying for me is inconsistent

She pray to god she dont see eviction, or see me missing

I've seen the fallout, of losing grip when you start to get it

My heart been in it, im not that far but I marvel in it

If god does listen, I hope he gets this, and helps the vision

My life and mission, is being happy and rapping wit it

I'm Taking chances, the devil dancing, my demons staring

Got different stances, than angels who never be apparent

I stick to leaves like I stood on branches, my thoughts get random

Theres no controlling, my mind a channel, my soul a sample

Of what I handle, im taking shots but im losing handles

I always ramble, im cunningham randal tryna scramble

I put my life on wax and watch the fire in the candle

I feel like rambo, fuck penny pinching, I want a handful

Smoke

Smoke smoking til my eyes go

Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go

Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope

Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope

Smoke

Smoke smoking til my eyes go

Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go

Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope

Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope

I'm thinking daily bout what im making its complicating

So far I got none off music but this shit boutta save me

Depression real when you aint been working and feeling lazy

I've seen it daily my mom complaining this shit frustrating

The smoke is hazy, my vision worsed, but stay alerted

The way i'm working, im too determined, whats mine I earned it

My timing perfect, my time inserted, the time is turning

My mind been hurting, my mom been hurting, my mind observing

Her life is turning, her son is leaving, feels like desertion

Her tone been changing, with strangers strange how she started cursing

Woke up and heard it I swear that i've seen this shit in person

Do people change, or is change a current, i'm cranking turning

I'm tryna master the craft im working, just watch me learning

You're watching one of the future greatest thats tryna make it,

Understand that ain't an understatement, I'm underrated

You got a throne well then watch me take it, you blink its taken (gone)

Smoke

Smoke smoking til my eyes go

Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go

Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope

Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope

Smoke

Smoke smoking til my eyes go

Smoke has been my blindfold, I wonder where my time go

Searching for my shelter through the storm and tryna find hope

Dont tell me that ill be ok just tell me how to find hope