STANDING Lyrics

Today was a good day

Today I cracked a smile for the first time in a long time

Say

Is it normal to feel nothing for days straight

Then feel something for a day straight

Straight faced

Say

Should I say something to somebody

How I feel like I am a nobody

And nobody hears me go about it

This is me saying it to somebody

Been wondering 'bout what's wrong with me

Been wondering why I can't sleep

Why I can't seem to be stable enough to stay on my feet

If I would bleed?

Would I still feel?

Would I still see?

Let's let it be

And eventually I'll get epiphany

Or forget about it

Totally

'Till it comes back to me

Recursively

I keep cursing it

Am I cursed to live?

Prolly not the first to feel

That I can't achieve, what I want to be

But I still feel, that I need to compete

And stand on my feet

And keep on repeat

To feel complete

Feeling nothing is natural state for me

A state as a place for me

To come back and then shut me in

To hide within

My face as a mirror reflecting the shade I'm in

Reflecting the state I'm in

I hide it but still I will

Blame it on me until

I find something that I can't explain

And it makes my day

Or breaks my faith

Maybe then I stop the chase, and I take my aim

And say my name

I break away

I'm Paralyzed

I'm standing still

And I'm standing still, don't know how I'm standing still

Body screaming: don't move a limb

Pressure is building in

Keep climbing in, don't remove the pin

It's aching, I'm hurting, it's burning, I'm turning, don't freeze me I'm standing still

I'm standing still

Don't know how I'm standing still

My mind is ill

I should talk about it

I probably will

But the feeling still

I'm giving in

Still living in

This loop I'm hanging in

Tie a rope to a tree

And hang my sins

Even those that I hide within

Was actually fine

For the first time in a long time

I was enjoying myself

Enjoying this hell

Everything went so well

Destroyed my health

Didn't care

I felt compelled

To let go

To let no

One to tell me I need to show

Where I'm about to go

Cos I don't know

How I'm supposed to know

Where I'm supposed to go

Lock myself in my home

Wanna be alone

And sometimes I blow

Outta proportions I know

I don't care if you see me

And if you believe me

I'm bleeding

No feeling

You feel me

Hope not 'cos that's not a feeling worth seeing

I can't feel myself breathing

There is no note worth reading

I hope you remeber this being

Today was a good day

Today I cracked a smile, for the first time in a long time

Should I say something to somebody

How I feel like I'm a nobody, and nobody hears me go about it

This is me saying it to somebody

Should I say something to somebody

How I feel like I'm a nobody, and nobody hears me go about it

This is me saying it to somebody

This is me saying it to somebody

I hope you listening