Pillow Talk Lyrics

Sometimes I lay in my bed

Repeating the things that I could've said

Hard to admit, but I think about it

More than I should and I can't seem to quit

Think about violence think about me

And the criteria I never meet

Can't comprehend all the voices I hear

Feeling like crying, but can't feel no tears

Say that it's trauma maybe it's stress

Maybe I need to sleep better to test

But what if I tell you I'm trying my best

Closing my eyes relaxing no rest

Think about violence think about sex

And why do I hate it so much in my head

Feeling abnormal not even formal

Maybe not liking it makes me immortal

More than I bargained I'm already farther the rabbit hole

Back where I started I'm getting outsmarted

My brain is the culprit and also the target

I tell myself I should be sleeping

I know that I need it

I try to relax and control my own breathing

I feel that I keep on repeating

The same kind of lies and the reasoning

Trying to ease it in just keep on breathing in

I'm on the border of mental disorder

I can't really sleep and I'm dying of boredom

Just little pillow talk

Why would you care at all

About my pillow talk in my head

Just little pillow talk

Why would I care at all

When the pillow talks to my head

No I never relax

The thoughts in my mind are moving too fast

I'm already past my bedtime alas

Stuck in the past I think about that

What if everybody you love would die

Would you be crying out of your mind

Or would you be trying to catch up the dying

Living in lie until your goodbyes

Sorting financial troubles you might have

Suffer in silence why would you do that

Can't even lie

I think you deserve all the pain and the suffering you ever felt back then

Why would you try if you never achieve it

Did it before and you never succeeded

Chasing that high again trying to feel it

Running away from me never revealing

Living with this pain every day when I feel the same

Then I pull away from my bed and I levitate

This is fake what I'm gonna say, but then I fly away

Nobody on my way am I gonna be late

Well anyway

This ain't no race, but I still finish first place

And I fall on my face and I follow the trace

To break the pace

Late rest brake check braindead

Lately I haven't been facing

I'm patiently waiting my time to get phasing

Through all of the spacing between my own thoughts

And the crazy amazing plots of the stories I got

But they don't stop the clock

And I don't like it no more

Just let me write it down and then call

It a day and let me fall

Just little pillow talk

Why would you care at all

About my pillow talk in my head

Just little pillow talk

Why would I care at all

When the pillow talks to my head

Just little pillow talk

Why would you care at all

About my pillow talk in my head

Just little pillow talk

Why would I care at all

When the pillow talks to my head