not my best Lyrics

I know I can do better which is why I'm so upset

I've proven myself worthy and shown myself respect

I think that's part of the problem though

I know I'm not my best

My self confidence is killing me

I'm tired of wanting rest

I don't know what I want

But what I want is not enough

I know the cracks will show

My mind is slow

To make the right decisions

No

I'm sorry to have broken you

It's normal though

That's just how things have seemed to go

I must let go

I'm not my best

I'm tired of disappointing

All my friends

Won't come and show me

How I've changed

I know the rest

Of this song is written for me somewhere

I'll find ways to lose it

God, I swear

I know that it just doesn't matter

Shit still sucks, it ain't getting better

As long as I'm still here

I know it's time grow up

I'm just scared of feeling change

The future's unpredictable

But the past is getting lame

I think that's part of the problem though

I'll make myself insane

knowing things would be much better

If I'd just forget her name

I'm waiting for some change

But I don't know if it's worth the wait

I'm self reliant wannabe

Anything different would feel strange

I'm sick and tired of hoping that my

Days won't go to waste

But it seems pretty unlikely

I'm tired of wanting haste

I'm not my best

I'm tired of disappointing

All my friends

Won't come and show me

How I've changed

I know the rest

Of this song is written for me somewhere

I'll find ways to lose it

God, I swear

I know that it just doesn't matter

Shit still sucks, it ain't getting better

As long as I'm still here