Amos 5:18 ft. St.La Lyrics

Woe to you who long for the day of the lord

Why do you long for the day of the lord

That day will be darkness, not light

I don’t care what is going on outside

Those are the walls you built for me in your eternal love

And I shall forever be grateful

For you are giving me shelter

As long as I am inside of you, you are inside of me

You fulfil me, you fill me up

I am privileged, for my soul is reserved for you, my one and only master

My flesh is worthless as long as you take care of my soul

And I can't hide

My pain

Your lies are slowly killing me

You open your eyes but you can't see

You're not benign

Inside

For you there's nothing left to gain

You belive in god, your life's in vain

Sometimes I just wanna pray and due to my reason I never do

I never pray to this God, never pray the shit out of my fucking head

Because I know that all those prayers could not be made responsible

For the fulfillment of all my wishes

Maybe I got that wrong

Maybe praying is not about begging someone to help

But to show me what I actually wish for, by forcing me to compose a proper sentence

A description of an aim which I don’t know how to accomplish yet

And I can't hide

My pain

Your lies are slowly killing me

You open your eyes but you can't see

You're not benign

Inside

For you there's nothing left to gain

You belive in god, your life's in vain

Hah

You have not forsaken me

I know that. I can feel it

You can’t have forsaken me, for you have actually never existed

I can feel it, this disease in me, it killed them all, it will kill me

And I can't hide

My pain

Your lies are slowly killing me

You open your eyes but you can't see

Yet it is not your punishment, it is my own achievement

Ooh yes, you showed me what love is, and you made me love my own destruction

I love every kind of dysfunction in me, it shows you are nothing but a fucking failure

You have not killed them

You can’t kill anyone, you are not more than a useless symbol made up by mankind

And it is mankind that made a fucking mess out of me

You're not benign

Inside

For you there's nothing left to gain

You belive in god, your life's in vain

And I love this mess that is me

And you taught me to share my love, didn’t you

I’ll be a good girl

I’ll show you how it feels to be the mess that is your love