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I'm putting myself first

It's thanks to trauma I now know that

I'm putting myself first

It's thanks to trauma I now know that

I'm putting myself first

It's thanks to trauma I now know that

Not putting up with shit

Selfishness isn't always that bad

I'm putting myself first

It's thanks to assholes that I know that

I'm putting myself first

I'm putting myself first

I'm putting myself

We've been taught for years and years that respect should just be given

That someone being older means that they're a better being

That's a bullshit lie told by blind ignorant assholes

Who turn away from all the pain that we are forced to go through

Look me in the eye and tell me I should suck it up

Just look me in the eye and tell me her perversion's all my fault

Look me in the eye

Tell me authority's always right when I've watched that same authority traumatize my life

"Just be quiet"

"Just sit down"

"Always say yes to authorities"

"Be good"

"Behave"

"and no debates"

"No one cares for minorities"

If my thoughts were respected and my boundaries were kept

I wouldn't have said yes to her when she had used her hands

But I was taught that saying no would get me abused

So I sat in fright

My lips sealed tight

In fear of what I'd lose

I was 8, and at that age

All I knew was "stop"

All I knew was just stay silent or else I would lose it all

So fuck all the authorities for what they put me through

The reason why I'm so fucked up is all because of you