niko Lyrics

I walked in blind

Walked in naïve

Couldn't see

Wouldn't let me leave

Traded so much just to gain your trust

What I didn't know

Your trust was luck

Had no reason to activate that injured side

You had to wait

Overwatered and over-sheltered

My tree of life was your trauma filter

Like cat and mouse

You sat and preyed

Staring, watching every move I made

Analyzing and deciphering

You were finding flaws

You were forensic filing

Now I'm breaking

Tearing at the seams

At the trauma you transferred to me

God forbid you ever do me wrong

To abusers, they're the victims all along

I've only realized this recently

There's not a good reason to be ashamed of me

My deprecation and humiliation were just seeds that narcissists have planted in me

Anything that I have done wrong I've tried to fix

Said "sorry, sorry, sorry" 'till my voice lost pitch

I wasted breath and air and sweat and blood and strife and all my mental health to fix Your shitty life

You got sick of waiting

Sick of stalking, preying

So you set me up and tried to trap me and it phased me

It worked so well

You left me in the dust

Thus began the cycle through the mud

When your set-up worked and it was done

I was left trying to work and word what had begun

For you had set me up to fail

Acted like I hurt you, fucked up

When it was impossible to tell

What it was I did

'Cause apparently "no" is not valid

And setting boundaries must've really hurt your feelings

Last I checked I was simply fucking speaking

I'm so sorry

I can't read your mind

It's almost like there's no faults to find

You were breaking, tearing at the seams

From the trauma that has no business with me

God forbid you're ever in the wrong

To abusers they're the victims all along

You need to realize this quickly for there's not a good reason to be ashamed of me

Your deprecation and humiliation are just seeds that grew into the problems planted in Me

Anything that I've done wrong I've tried to fix

Said "sorry, sorry, sorry" 'till my voice lost pitch

And unlike you, who could barely say a word

I tried every day to patch and heal your hurt

Lies

All your words are lies

Goodbye

In lies there's always the truth

Once I saw the game you played

The reason for my injured brain

I ran away to the light of day to keep me safe from your acid rain

But that was just the start

There were many more attempts

To slander, rumor, batter, break me, hurt me, hate me

Turn my friends against me, crush me, fucking end me

You kept going even when I ran

I set up walls and locks and gates and wire and weapons

Even after our ordeal is said and done

You kept attempting, kept conspiring, plotting, hating

I told you once and twice and thrice and so much more

That I was gone and walked away right through that door

But in your tiny sick and twisted fucking mind

You needed more than just an end, you needed signs

You needed to know that you have fucking broke me

You needed the satisfaction of succeeding

So I ran away and left you in the dark

Let you be

Let you eat away at someone else's heart