Entity Lyrics

I know that I'll be home tonight

But I'm not too sure that I'll make it through the night

Think I'm letting go, think I'll let you know

When I'm growing slow, but I'm halted though

I'm seeking me

While I'm running from my entity

I've been thinking lately bout how I can better myself

And I've been struggling thinking so I better reach out for help

In this world, who do we have but ourselves

And messages can always help but do the people reach out

They probably don't, but I can reach a bottle pass me that shit

I know it hurts me, but how else should I be dealing with this

And I'm sick of being pissed, drunk, sick when I wake up

Thrift what I'm made of so I can erase love

Don't judge me for nothing if you don't know what I've seen

Oh fuck it, I know you're right I just can't see reality

I make excuses for nothing I'm living like it's a dream

I'm moving back and forth, I'll pass the torch to someone who's clean, but

Living like I'm never gonna get better ain't helping nothing so I don't know what to do anymore

But I'll be good I just have life to overcome

And I know maybe in my next life I won't have to struggle, find out tomorrow

I know that I'll be home tonight

But I'm not too sure that I'll make it through the night

Think I'm letting go, think I'll let you know

When I'm growing slow, but I'm halted though

I'm seeking me

While I'm running from my entity

How could I love myself when no one loves me

I miss the days when I thought everyone was too much to see

Up in class with the pencil and the surroundings

Look now I wish I could go back, and I could savor those weeks

Too many times I tried to overcome the anxiety

It's invincible and no one gets it, it lives and it breathes

The mixture of antidepressants yeah it's killing me weak

I know there's better ways to cope, I take the easier street

Now there's more to life than depression, even I doubt it, think about it

I might have things to cry about but more to be proud of

And I learned over the years, if no one wants me, I do

And that means more than the world so until the flowers don't bloom

I'll fight for life in itself

I'll fight for my mental health

I'll fight for you to know you're okay, and I'll fight for myself

A pictures worth a thousand words but I know music is more

So what's the point in holding back, I know that you're worth the world, yo

I know that I'll be home tonight

But I'm not too sure that I'll make it through the night

Think I'm letting go, think I'll let you know

When I'm growing slow, but I'm halted though

I'm seeking me

While I'm running from my entity