Soak It Up Lyrics

I find it funny how you left me broken hearted

But you left yourself hurt just as bad

Ain't it funny how you loved me just enough to overcome me

Yeah you left me there so broken after what we had

And if I could find the right words to bring you back into my life

I'd split the ocean, fly and live forever too

And if I could cry enough to keep you here

I'd fill a pool with all my tears

And soak it up with whiskey just for you

But that's not enough for you

But that's not enough for you

Sometimes I think about my actions because I'm hurting from this

I blame myself for it but I think it's deeper within

I mean fuck I just lost my person I'm losing myself again

And I couldn't be healing better when hurting what's on my wrists and it's like

I'm fighting every day I know I'll never be the same

I should be happy by myself but all I feel is pain

And what, to throw that shit onto another person who don't deserve it

But I'm alone please fill this void I'm going insane

And I ain't eat in a week

I'm tossing back and forth in sleep

And I'm bleeding more than I drink

And I'm reaching for any girl who will let me fuck

Cause I'm thinking if someone gives me the love that you lost at least now I feel that relief

And if that makes me cold then I guess I'm frozen

I'll never have a heart again if you were curious on how that was going

Seems like you're fine, I would be too if I had two hearts

You broke my trust, I broke your streak

The longest you could ever be loyal

I gave that shit to you so what am I worth

I fought to bring you back until I saw what's under your personality

Flirting with purpose behind closed curtains at least

Just for you to want me back when he don't fill what you need

Fuck being a second option, I'm worth way more than that

I put in way too much for me to end up stabbed in the back

The fact that that could never mean a thing to you shows a lot

You're probably off in someone else's body and I'm in your thoughts

I fucking hated myself for who I was, you left me like that

I'll never allow a woman to bring me back to feeling like that

I won't give you that power again and I pray no one else does

Cause no one else deserves to feel what I feel, dragged in the mud

But fuck

Fuck dating, fuck feelings

I fuck women who don't really have feelings for me

And fuck trying to be happy by filling my heart up

Really it's sad, I can do it myself

And one day I'll get there and I'll bring myself up out of this hell

I find it funny how you left me broken hearted

But you left yourself hurt just as bad

Ain't it funny how you loved me just enough to overcome me

Yeah you left me there so broken after what we had

And if I could find the right words to bring you back into my life

I'd split the ocean, fly and live forever too

And if I could cry enough to keep you here

I'd fill a pool with all my tears

And soak it up with whiskey just for you

But that's not enough for you

But that's not enough for you