This Song Triggered My Anxiety Lyrics

Another day with allergies, Mother Nature be hatin'

Momma says I'm gonna be big

Notice the hesitation

Pushin' poetry while I pray I don't get that virus

Devil saying people ignore me cause I'm speakin' in papyrus

Need go to therapy, but half of me says I'm fine

While my other half wanna end it here, and go talk to Lord divine

Used to have so many friends, few I loved the most

But, now that we're older, all their bodies turned to ghost

Seein' them live their lifes, just a photo at a time

On my desktop, full of lyrics, breathin' life into rhymes

Like, "Have you heard of TLR, I swear his music great"

"He doesn't know me, like personally, but I love he can relate"

"And his beats be catchy, they're always inside my head"

"Though for some reason his words don't sound as happy as he said"

If his words are true, then his thoughts are kinda' scary

Like saying "You'll understand my pain when you see my obituary"

I feel so alone

My house don't feel like home

Father are you there

Please just say you care

Cause I just wanna go away

Can I go to you

And no, I'm not okay

I just don't know what to do

Cause I just wanna go away

Comin' home to you

And no, I'm not okay

I really don't know what to do

Up, up, and away, I'm on that pursuit of my happiness

Used to feel so great, but now I get sick smokin' cannabis

Spiral comin' down, why can't I stay up on cloud nine

Tryin' to talk to God, but I forget to do it every time

I do love my girl Mary, but I need to leave her palace

And go down that rabbit hole with Jack Trippa, and that Alice

Maybe I can find myself once I'm goin' at full sail

If I never come back then that means I went beyond the vail

For all the kids that are listen, you gotta stay alive

Heaven knows that this world doesn't want ya'll to survive

I've already jumped off that cliff, so my mental state has shattered

The adult in me is dead, that's why I'm crazy like the Hatter

Somewhere in that Little Apple a piece of me is now lost

Got my ball and chain, and I just keep on droppin' my damn cross

This song triggered my anxiety, but who's payin' attention

Depression is in my songs because it's somethin' I don't mention

Don't even know who to talk to, cause nobody there to listen

And the ones I try to tell usually vanish or go missin'

I don't blame them, they aren't the ones that need the fixin'

Blamin' myself for my own position

I feel so alone

My house don't feel like home

Father are you there

Please just say you care

Sometimes I talk to walls, I get afraid that you are busy

While I try to live you truth, hopin' that you will accept me

Such a "Christian" boy, that sins like only you would know

I'm so far from being a savior, I know I am no hero

Terrified of bein' left behind durin' the Tribulation

Scared I'll see Heaven from the other side if Hell's my destination

Scripter says my thoughts shouldn't even be a factor

But my body's of the dirt, and will return to there after

I feel so alone

My house don't feel home

Father are you there

Please just say you care

Cause I just wanna go away

Can I go to you

And no, I'm not okay

I just don't know what to do

Cause I just wanna go away

Comin' home to you

And no, I'm not okay

I really don't know what to do