A Letter To Who's Listening Lyrics

Dear world, I'm writing to you cause I want you to know the truth

On October 30th, around about 2, I was in a deli, I was getting a sandwich, I was trying

To fill up my belly

In front of me, there was a lady and she was holding her baby

I was making funny faces, I was making them laugh, I was acting a little silly, but little

did I know the next step that I took it would change me

I started to shake, my ears were ringing, my vision was blurry, my body was sweating

My state of mind was tripping

The people behind me were like, Sir, you look pale and sickened

911, somebody call 911, this man needs a medic, he's collapsed to the ground, he's losing

Consciousness, he's hardly responsive, and he needs anesthetics

Sir, an ambulance is on the way, everything's gonna be okay

The ambulance arrives, they rip off my shirt and stick me with electrodes

Please, you gotta help me, I'm too young to see the crossroads

Ryan, you need to calm down, your heart rate isn't great, the BPMs are all over the place

It's pumping from 170 to 138, 138 to 180 trace

I was scared to death, tears started running down my face

They light up the siren, start speeding, screeching around the corners, they got me to the hospital

In two minutes flat

The doors burst open, I see nine people in white coats wearing masks

They start hooking me up to tubes, wires, EKG machines, ultrasound screens, my mind's

Raising, I didn't know if I was gonna die or not

I didn't even know how to act

Fuck, I didn't even know what hospital I was at

All I could think was I'm 33, I shouldn't be laying up here in cardiac, I should be

Out with my friends, having a good time, driving Cadillacs

But I did this to myself

Hold onto your seats, I'm gonna tell you how I fucked up my health

I didn't want to speak the truth, the doctor kept asking me, do you smoke, do you drink

Do drugs, I lied about everything

I knew exactly what the fuck was going on with me

The weekend before, I was snorting line after line like it didn't mean anything

They called up the home, they said, I heard you're holding that ketamine, what the fuck

Was I thinking

I guess I wasn't, my demons got the best of me

After two and a half days in ICU, they gave me electric shock surgery and brought me back

To life

I survived

I'm blessed to say I have a new lease on life, and I'll be damned if I'm gonna let it go

To waste this time

Now I gotta stay headstrong, put that bullshit behind me and move on

Light up the nights like stadium lights, never take it for granted cause you never know when

Darkness will take your light

See me being on the brink of death, it gave me a lot of insights

It taught me to be loving, to be caring, even let the girl that you know that she's the

One that you like

So I put myself out there and she said, let's see where it goes

Whatever the fuck that means, I guess I still don't understand girl code, but at least she

Knows

Also, I'd like to give a shout out to those who stuck by my side through my demise, my

Rough rides

I never meant to hurt you guys, for the ones that I did allowed me to apologize

See I wasn't in my right mind, I was abusing drugs to unwind, almost became another statistic

What kind of future is this

I wanted help but felt like no one would listen, but that wasn't the case, I was just headed

in a bad direction

I know I'm not the only one to feel like no one will come through, but that isn't true

I have an ear for you, even two

If you don't have my number, let me write it for you

I don't ever want anyone to feel like they don't matter

This is a cold ass world, it's time we all gather

Sincerely, Ryan

Thank you

I love you all

Let's live happily ever after