White Elephant Lyrics

I've been given a gift I don't know what to do with

A burden as large as the damage it caused

So give me a minute, let me try to resist

I cannot conceive how to move on from this

Missing an opportunity

Can you close the door?

Frankly I don't think there's much left for me here

I'm given a body that's falling apart

I've got so much rage, filled me from ear to ear

I wish that it would tear me apart

There's a swelling in my heart

A beating call of distress

And it's bleeding through my clothes

I hope I look pretty with my heart on the line

So tell me

When I am bleeding,

Am I pretty enough

If I tear myself apart,

Am I pretty enough

When I let you tell me I'm enough

Is my writhing needy body pretty enough?

And I know I promised never write about that time of my life

But truthfully I haven't had the time to realize

I should have been easier on myself

(So thank you, I needed it)

Before I crawled back to thank you for my demise

Oh, I wish I could say that its just a lie

Oh, I wish I could it was just a bad past

I wish I could say that its overreacted

Goddamn, I'm the white elephant in all your rooms

In every store and bar and place you walk down the street

Between you and me, there's both of us always on our minds

I'm so sorry that we'll never move on

I promise this was the last time

I'll ever write about you, oh