paranoia (bonus) Lyrics

I did all that shit for your safety

I realized afterward

That nothin' done could ever repay me

I knew it had to work

The clock was tickin' my mind was racin

I saw you after church

Was only there to go pick up Zalen

But then on afterwards

I stopped by church, we talked about prayin

Guess I forgot so quick

About my grandpa in operation

He told the doctors

He knew he would make it, cause God would save him

He couldn't breathe at all

And he still took off that ventilator

He knew it had to work

Cause his belief was that he's the savior

He died gaspin' for air

Cause where he put his faith would betray him

I wish there was a God

I'd be more comfortable and less anxious

And not take full responsibility cause it's in arrangement

I just was terrified that somehow this was a simulation

Or maybe was a plot from Satan

And all these nasty thoughts

These can't be mine, I think I'm invaded

By negative energy

Meditate, gotta find some patience

Or maybe this happens to everyone in my generation

I hide from my constant thinkin

I tend to over analyze every single conversation

You hide inside your faith

So you never have to say a thing and

You duck responsibility

And hurt without second thinkin

I'm not the perfect person that you hear when the music's playin