rotten apple (Extended) Lyrics

Been awake for 4 days

Feel like I'm living in a haze

I can barely catch my breath

I can barely feel my face

Stomach is in knots

And I'm running in a race

If I'm the only one running

I would still get second place

This fever that I'm feeling

It is feeding all my demons

And even when I'm sleeping

I still know the devils dealing

My reality is slipping like a CD that is skipping

And though my world is ripping I'm not tripping

I'm just sipping

Yeah, I never turn my back more than 90 degrees

Never turn my back on my enemies

Vigilant and diligent and annoying

Paranoid from the void

I don't live to please

I just live for me

I don't care what you want me to be

I'm the last rotten apple of my family tree

I'm so worried of what

Everyone thinks of me

I need validation

I need sympathy

I feel so alone

And so cold I could freeze

Do I need a cure

Or am I the disease

I feel as though I've got no hope

I'm always at the end of my rope

Now it's time to tiptoe

Through the valley of the shadow of my shame

Til I forget my own name

What the fuck are you looking at

You better stay back before I ATTACK

I don't feel so good, no my anger has taken me

And my body is shaking, self control has forsaken me

I don't see you, I just see red

If hurt people hurt people

Then I'm better off dead

Better off dead

The powers that be are mocked by my existence

As I am a symbol of the spite

That exists to prove they are not infallible

And that one man truly can become

The inevitable surrender