self-sabotage Lyrics

Curl up on my bed, I need to clear my head

Figure out what's happening to me

And once the day is gone, I'll run far so I don't get caught

I'm a weakling on the run

I trip over rocks and scrape my knees

And once I'm set and done, I'll let myself bleed

What's the harm in doing nothing?

What's the harm if I do nothing?

Self-sabotage, it's just what I do

And it won't be long before it infects you too

Self-sabotage, it's a risky game

But it's a game I'm always playing

I wake up in tears and covered in sweat

It's already been a year and I'm still not over it

I get down on my knees and say"Lord, let me forget"

I'm not up to Her to take up that bet

I try to be good, I try to be clean

But everything I do makes me feel more seen

I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared

And gosh, I hate your demeaning stares

You probably think I'm unaware

I won't say a prayer this time, I swear

Low self-esteem, failing beliefs

It's all my fault, everything's wrong

Failure to failure

Feelings and thoughts

I lost myself, but you never knew me at all