Child Soul Entrapped Lyrics

There should be a way

To bridge the dark chasm

I'm frustrated you see

My mind in a spasm

I hide for safety

As he flails around

I'm shut up into silence

I don't make a sound

His rage escalates

I must not be found

He knows that I fear him

His victim to pound

When they finally do find me

I know not to fight back

I'm safer that way

When they begin the attack

They've trained my small body

They controlled my mind, too

Vulnerable in my own confusion

I must endure 'til they're through

I didn't keep squirming

In a while I lay silent

Losing all sense of time

It was just way too violent

I pretended to be dead

They didn't even care

They continued in pleasure

While off in the distance I stared

But sometimes it was worse

I was made to participate

And do things to him

While I was in a full denial state

He screamed and put me down

I'm so worthless and ashamed

He made me suffer even worse

Until I was tamed

It makes me crazy to think

I had no chance

My life threatening dance

I'm in a helpless trance

Please come real fast

Help me break free

I'm screaming for you

In a desperate plea

The pain

I'll cut it all to pieces

Mutilation is the answer

To excise all the horror

And lance the deadly cancer

You know what I'm saying

I can't live always pained

It strips me and dissolves me

The hate feels ingrained

I'm in a desperation

For safety

And I'll always hide my best

Weapons and defenses I'll use

And in armor I'll be dressed

It isn't very long

'Til you will see

I'm shredded into fragments

When you enter me

You better run

Because I'll kill you for sure

I'll beat you to death

You've made me impure

I'm deathly afraid of losing

The battle I've begun

To protect myself from life

Escape routes I've run

You know it won't be long

'Til I cave in under the pressure

All leverage I'm losing

To vanish from the stressor

So how do I

Get out of this war

It's inbounding from all angles

And leaves my body and mind

In deeply rooted tangles

Don't you recognize the devastation

My hope chained down and sinking

It fights a constant torture

That distorts all of my thinking

So what do I feel

An extreme loss of control

I can't find my center anymore

I can't find my soul